The road of Reformation

HELLLLOOO FELLOW SUMMONERS OF THE RIFT, how are you today? I hope good![slayer-pantheon-thumbs]

Above you can find my previous post about how my ban was unjustified (You can find the chat logs there). WELL, Its been 6? 7 months? Since my perma-ban. I can definitely say that I DID deserve it and it was justified, NO MATTER WHAT under and circumstance EVER should you say the things I have said.

This post is about the process of being banned though! A lot of people get banned and no one really explains how it feels or anything of that sort. So I want to share my story with YOU. It was a dark and lonely night on the summoners rift, AKA my bedroom at 3 am. I tell myself "Man I should probably go to bed so I can catch some Z's before Drivers ED." And then I remember that I want to get better at league, and not be some Gold scrub that I was. So I decided to solo q in normal's draft. I find myself getting matched up with other people who are toxic and they watched Tyler1 of course, I could tell cause we had a discussion about him and they kept saying R-r-r-r-r-r-r-rank 1, lol.[zombie-brand-facepalm]

I decided to queue with them because they made me laugh so hard with there comments and jokes. I found myself playing Draven the 2nd game because they wanted to see my "Mad Draven skills" as I remember describing it to them. After every kill I got I chatted R-r-r-r-r-r-rank 1 and flamed the enemies of course.[zombie-brand-mindblown]

The last game we decided to troll around and have some fun, a full support comp. My pick: Thresh Top full AD/AS, lol my lord. Of course my match up smoked me which made me mad, cause after every time he killed me, he would flash his mastery or do the thing where you BM by spamming an emote CTRL+3-2-1. Which caused me to flame SUPER hard. So personally, queuing with those guys. Not my brightest Idea.[zombie-brand-clap]

Onto the after effects of getting banned. Shortly after the message popped up I messaged everyone that I had outside of League, I told them all what happened and of course none of them were up to comfort me lol. So all I did was just slide into bed, and honestly. I cried. Now I didn't cry for too long, was just a little 5 minutes of dying eternally, LOL. All I remember next is that for the whole summer, I quit everything. I didn't make a new account, I actually have about 10 accounts with cool names but I was too lazy to level them up. I was too sad because I spent $700 on the game I loved so much and ME, MYSELF; threw it all away. I hated myself for weeks. About a month later I started to level up an account again, but then shortly realized I had no money to buy my favorite champs, (I had recently quit my job). Fast forward about 2 months, I think to myself, "Yea I don't care that I got banned, I hated league anyways". But, that wasn't the case. I still loved league and I still wanted to play, but I couldn't....

During this whole time of not playing league or anything I was sad and all I did was surround myself with my friends. Everyday I hung out with friends, I was home once or twice a week. Barely saw my family, which was slowly falling apart. I'M 17 BTW LOL; 16 at this time. Now, I'm going to say it again because it is true; my ban is justified, and I have come to terms with that. Now, I'm not very good at school so we decided this year (Junior), to try online school, and I must say the first couple weeks were great, not a lot of work to do. I also acquired a job in the mall. This allowed me to get a car, I also picked up CS:GO again. [slayer-jinx-unamused]

About 3 weeks of that going on, my best friend hits me up and says, "One of my friends just quit league, he gave me his account. Its under my e-mail and I can give it to you; Bronze 3. What do you say? Come back?"

I, of course, said yes. This friend for WEEKS was trying to get me to come back. And that account was it.

Fast forward to now, I was able to climb the account to Silver 4; I was sick the last 2 weeks of ranked so I couldn't grind it to gold xD, but I'm using that as another punishment for being toxic. Now, I don't want to say I'm fully reformed, because in my skype and curse calls I still flame the enemy, just not in chat :) I still need to work on myself more. I'm happy to be back honestly. This game has brought me so much joy and good friends that I love.

Many people from the last post told me to leave this community forever and to stay out. But, I say to them: People Change

Thank you everyone, I love you all, This will be my last post on this account, GL HF

Darth Paragon