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I got suspended for 15 days but i want to talk about how i feel rather than the ban itself

Ηuawei·2/22/2020, 7:54:47 AM·1 votes·2,772 views

I won't really talk much about why etc besides that i did go off hinge for 1 game and fed 6 kills because i was tilted. Justified or not i dont care.

Even though i was honour 3 with dozens of honours earned each game, because im generally a good teammate but i did pull some random shit from time to time and i was mostly expecting this ban at some point.

What i REALLY want to talk about is the effect it's having on me as a person.

  • First thing i was frustrated when i got the message but quickly accepted it.
  • Secondly intense bitterness over the game overtook me for some reason, i can't look at my favourite champions in the same light anymore
  • I can't bring myself to see anything Riot related like the cool clips and music videos and feel happy about it like the Warriors 2020 video i liked so much
  • I haven't logged in Legends of Runeterra ever since.

I have been chat restricted 3 times or so but this taught me something that helped me in real life a lot too. To have godly patience with people. Even at work ive been praised by customers for being "patient beyond and above". When i was chat restricted i was penalized and i could still play the game but i couldn't chat beyond 3 messages and that helped me. Even when i wanted to cuss at people i couldnt and eventually it all sunk in.

I haven't been chat restricted ever since and im happy about it.

But this suspension is just creating me frustration and i almost find it a meaningless punishment. I can't play the game and can't react to my punishment other than waiting to play again. I'm not sure what's the takeaway lesson from this but i can't find it, besides the obvious "if you do it again you'll get banned" which doesn't motivate me in a positive way more in like meh i don't care, whatever.

I have came to the conclusion that what creates me this sadness is totally unrelated with the ban but it's the feeling of being unwated by the community if that makes sense.

10 Comments

zPOOPz2/22/2020, 8:07:47 AM3 votes

why do I get the feeling that your ban is for intentionally feeding that is unrelated to chat?

Umbral Regent2/22/2020, 8:17:59 AM3 votes

Firstly, I want to say, it's good that you came to accept the punishment, but it's also very unfortunate that you came away from it feeling dejected and unwanted.

I know it probably won't mean much, but honestly, reading this post gives me the impression that you're one of the better players League of Legends has, that you're understanding and capable of reform, and those qualities - especially the former of the two - should honestly mark you as a player more welcome than most.

But this suspension is just creating me frustration and i almost find it a meaningless punishment. I can't play the game and can't react to my punishment other than waiting to play again. I'm not sure what's the takeaway lesson from this but i can't find it, besides the obvious "if you do it again you'll get banned" which doesn't motivate me in a positive way more in like meh i don't care, whatever.

Yeah, sadly, that's a big weak point in the system. It's good at telling players what they did wrong to warrant the punishment, but it's not good at all at encouraging them to do better for it. Though, in all honesty, I'm having trouble myself thinking of how to encourage reform.

I guess, the best way to go about it is to just take stock of what you have to lose, and identify what pushed you over the edge to intentionally feed in the first place. Try to figure out where the tipping point was, and work to manage your tilt going forward so that you don't resort to that again and risk your account.

And I know even that encouragement kinda sucks, but, really it kind of all boils down to "you have to do it for yourself". Even if you feel the community doesn't want you, you do have a place in League, and I feel you should want to maintain that place, regardless of whether or not others want you around.

  • Secondly intense bitterness over the game overtook me for some reason, i can't look at my favourite champions in the same light anymore
  • I can't bring myself to see anything Riot related like the cool clips and music videos and feel happy about it like the Warriors 2020 video i liked so much
  • I haven't logged in Legends of Runeterra ever since.

This all is really unfortunate to hear, and worse still to me is that I honestly don't know how I could help with that. So, the least I can do is offer my ear, figuratively speaking. If you have any questions or just want to talk, feel free to it.

RibbyTheButcher2/22/2020, 9:11:23 AM3 votes

just make a new account, its pretty quick to level up and buy whatever few champions you want to play and then its just right back to the same old, until your real account is back. then, i recommend just turning off chat and refusing to communicate with anyone, if it ruins games so be it. the majority of league players are horrible people so you are probably better off just not associating with anyone in chat.

FeedKaylePlease2/22/2020, 8:37:20 PM3 votes

Don't worry OP. It will pass and then you will stop caring. I used to try my hardest not to be an asshole to avoid being banned. Then my main account got banned anyway. I lost control in one game. That was my first account and it had all the champions and a lot of skins. Felt a bit bad for a while. After that I leveled up a number of accounts and I actually stopped caring. Today I just don't give a fuck. I'm a complete asshole and unapologetic about it. I don't give a fuck about punishments and I will always tell a feeding piece shit how worthless I think he is and if I get a chat ban for it, I don't care. I'll do it again and again and again. It's actually quite liberating.

Iukiboy2/22/2020, 8:22:25 AM2 votes

I have been chat restricted 3 times or so but this taught me something that helped me in real life a lot too. To have godly patience with people.

Those are mostly 12 yo kids and not really people since they need to grow up mentally.

JustA kleo2/22/2020, 8:26:30 AM2 votes

14 days not 15!