I don't know why I keep coming back to this constant, constant abuse...

I've been playing for years now, ever since my brother introduced me to this game. I have no intent of stopping, but I have a bad habit of coaching. I also enjoy jungling cause I'm too impatient to lane most of the time (though I'm trying to learn top anyway). I'm also trying to get to at least Gold, but it's not working out. I keep running into someone who pushes my buttons.

Sometimes I'm in the wrong and get a little toxic. Heck I'm surprised I don't get reported more, but I guess not stooping to cursing or hateful words has saved me. Still, when I see a player making a mistake (a dude pushing an unwarded lane for example) I try to point it out. Yet some people don't want to hear it. I get angry when they make these mistakes anyway, and snap at me despite being in the wrong. I push teams of random players to win, begging them to push tower when we get an ace, or to stop pushing when the enemy is MIA. Yet I get snapped at. I can see how it's annoying, but I fail to see the alternative esp. when I don't usually use negative language. Yet most of the time I end a game coaching my team only to have them snap back at me. It happens every time, and I'm sick of it. Yet I understand I'm to blame too, and I'm lost.

I'm here at the end of the day, I gotta get up early tomorrow, and I've had one game end with an afk (not a dc, an afk. In a game we were winning, with a player who was winning and generally everyone was friendly. I feel to betrayed) and the other with the team feeder had the nerve to criticize me after I called him out for pushing two far. I'm feeling trapped.

I'm sure I play too much, and care too much about winning, yet I'm really suffering because of this community. I'm not sure what to do about this situation.