I was a piece of garbage and it felt good.

NaturesMayhem·Oct 29, 2018·5 votes·3,126 views

I've been having it rough lately, bad game one after another. Sometimes because I did really bad, but usually because some lane int'd or did poorly and it's been building up. Every game somebody dies at 4 mins and I just give up, then and there. It's over in my mind, I lose all track of the game and just brainlessly farm for the next 30 mins, trying to not add any fuel to flame. And with every game the thought of brainlessly farming for the next 30 mins drives me up the wall more and more.

From the first game where my bot fed and my mid died at 1 min, to my second where my mid and top refused common sense and kept feeding so I did the same going 4/14. My third was a real treat though, with a Jax top that never helped me in ganks and blamed me for essentially not solo killing the enemy, Kai'sai feeding and dc'ing every two minutes, and a MF support (not against a zyra) who thought free safe poke was what mattered as a support, not peel/cc/sustain for your adc. And she proceeded to tell me I should go play bots again since I don't understand the purpose of support. Then finally to my forth game where adc picked Ornn and proceeded to feed and try and blame the rest of the team because he was a troll.

The Ornn game was what broke the camel's back. I played nice for the most part, most I did was call him a troll and left it at that, was a little sarcastic telling him he was our carry when he tried to blame others, but that was it. However, at the end of the game, I flamed hard, used every swear word I knew, just let out everything. I knew I was likely to get punished for it, but I just didn't care, all the pent up stress and anger from the past matches had to be let out, I had to vent and so I did. Even this post is just me venting. I know I'm a piece of garbage for flaming him so hard, int'ing one of my games because I was mad, and refusing to participate in general for most. However, I just can't find any other way to deal with the frustration. And writing this post I'm starting to realize, I don't even like this game anymore. At one point it was all I ever played, I've played since season 4 consistently and I think it might be an addiction. No matter how frustrated, mad, upset, or feel like crying that I get, I come back, and I hate it. It's all for that one game where everything feels good and you're having fun, but the 4 other games where all you want to do is smash something with your hands makes it less that worth it.

I need to take a break from this game, permanently and I'm starting to think it would be best if Riot banned me, just so I would have nothing to return to. This game is frustrating, and I'm just another piece of garbage that makes it even worse.

I'm sorry for the aimless rant/vent, I just need to let this out. Type my thoughts and read them back to myself to understand how I feel and what I'm thinking right now.

6 Comments

Kei143Oct 29, 20182 votes

You can submit a ticket to https://support.riotgames.com and request them to lock your account.

BeatleZzzOct 29, 20181 votes

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I've been having it rough lately, bad game one after another. Sometimes because I did really bad, but usually because some lane int'd or did poorly and it's been building up. Every game somebody dies at 4 mins and I just give up, then and there. It's over in my mind, I lose all track of the game and just brainlessly farm for the next 30 mins, trying to not add any fuel to flame. And with every game the thought of brainlessly farming for the next 30 mins drives me up the wall more and more.

From the first game where my bot fed and my mid died at 1 min, to my second where my mid and top refused common sense and kept feeding so I did the same going 4/14. My third was a real treat though, with a Jax top that never helped me in ganks and blamed me for essentially not solo killing the enemy, Kai'sai feeding and dc'ing every two minutes, and a MF support (not against a zyra) who thought free safe poke was what mattered as a support, not peel/cc/sustain for your adc. And she proceeded to tell me I should go play bots again since I don't understand the purpose of support. Then finally to my forth game where adc picked Ornn and proceeded to feed and try and blame the rest of the team because he was a troll.

The Ornn game was what broke the camel's back. I played nice for the most part, most I did was call him a troll and left it at that, was a little sarcastic telling him he was our carry when he tried to blame others, but that was it. However, at the end of the game, I flamed hard, used every swear word I knew, just let out everything. I knew I was likely to get punished for it, but I just didn't care, all the pent up stress and anger from the past matches had to be let out, I had to vent and so I did. Even this post is just me venting. I know I'm a piece of garbage for flaming him so hard, int'ing one of my games because I was mad, and refusing to participate in general for most. However, I just can't find any other way to deal with the frustration. And writing this post I'm starting to realize, I don't even like this game anymore. At one point it was all I ever played, I've played since season 4 consistently and I think it might be an addiction. No matter how frustrated, mad, upset, or feel like crying that I get, I come back, and I hate it. It's all for that one game where everything feels good and you're having fun, but the 4 other games where all you want to do is smash something with your hands makes it less that worth it.

I need to take a break from this game, permanently and I'm starting to think it would be best if Riot banned me, just so I would have nothing to return to. This game is frustrating, and I'm just another piece of garbage that makes it even worse.

I'm sorry for the aimless rant/vent, I just need to let this out. Type my thoughts and read them back to myself to understand how I feel and what I'm thinking right now.

Best to uninstall this game and move on. You are making the right call. This game sucks now. it's filled with tons toxic, passive aggressive and mentally ill and angry players, and Riot's balance team just turned this into league of 1 shot, with broken champs all over the place. Don't let this game ruin your life and your emotions like it did mine. Just uninstall, find something FUN to play. It's not worth playing a game if it's not fun. Remember that. And don't let any of the haters or Riot bandwagoners convince you otherwise.

Just don't play maplestory 2. Don't even think about a nexon game. Ever.

Try PUBG if you can afford it. If not, try Fortnite. Always good to release frustration. Only try CS:Go if you want to deal with near-bots who can 1 shot HS you halfway across the map, who have been playing CS For the last 15 years. Try Battiefield 5, if it isn't a complete train wreck, when it comes out. Many interesting FPS/beat'em'up and RPG games available too.

or you can try something called "real life." Take up poker. Or chess.

Even try basket weaving.

Anything but League. You'll feel better in the end.

Tl;dr: take up Golf if you're physically healthy.

R107 GamesOct 29, 20182 votes

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Best to uninstall this game and move on. it's filled with tons toxic, passive aggressive and mentally ill and angry players

that's not a good reason to uninstall imo

NaturesMayhemOct 29, 20181 votes

Why not nexon games?

I have PUBG, 903 hours in the game, but I've stopped playing due to the de-sync resulting in getting shot behind walls, and dropping 5 games in a row only to find no weapons and get shot. While not as frustrating at league, it quickly started feeling like I was just bearing through the game for a good game, rather than enjoying the game in general.

I might look into Frotnite, it seems chill enough and it's free.

I have CS:GO, stopped playing because I found the aiming premise to be frustrating. Bullet bloom is glorified RNG and playing a game built around it left me feeling powerless.

I loved BF3 and BF4, definitely looking forward to 5.

I love solo indie games, Terraria, Rimworld, Subnautica, Gungeon, do you know any good ones you would recommend?

As for real life. I have my hobbies, reading particularly, and I do play chess with my friends during my off period at school, as well as art. So a good portion of my time is doing tangible things, but gaming is where I find myself truly able to relax as I've always done it since I was 7. I just want to find that groove I had as a child, to find a game that I can truly enjoy and the time disappears and before I realize it the day has gone bye.

Thaumaturge VoidOct 30, 20181 votes

I can provide a few;

Starmade. I actually wouldn’t recommend it right now, but it may be interesting in the future. It’s currently free to play if you download it from their site. It’s something akin to Minecraft in space.
The Creeper World/Particle Fleet series. It’s a really fun (mostly) top-down strategy game where you have to build and maintain a base to defend and/or escape from a liquid enemy. Particle fleet is similar and set in the same universe, however you instead command somewhat customizable ships and fight pellets instead of liquid.
Nimbatus Drone Constructor. Haven’t gotten to playing it yet, seems interesting.
AI war 2. Seems like it will be fun when it gets more developed, though right now it’s a bit of a mess.
Pulsar: Lost Colony. It’s a very fun team building game where you and your crew pilot a spaceship around a galaxy slowly being consumed by parasites. T’is not finished, and sadly updates seem to have slowed for now, but it provides a good 12 hours of replayable fun.

DODGEORLOSEOct 29, 20181 votes

If you really wanna get banned you can just spam toxic comments. They don't even need to be directed at anyone. I'm not saying you should, but if you find yourself unable to quit, this will definitely help.