The Rants of an Ex-ribbon Holder
I had unlocked all honor crests and had kept the green ribbon on my loading screen for 3 years. A few days ago, it was gone in a poof. If you ask me honestly, I daresay my honor crests were well-deserved. I had never flamed anyone before March 2016. Always typed 'nice job :D' when my teammate gets a kill or pushes a tower down. Say thanks to the jungler when they gave me a gank or their buffs. I would encourage my teammates when they are demoralized. I would offer suggestion to the strategy we should adopt to win the game. Make puns to lighten the mood. I am most definitely not the best player, as you can tell from the fact that I am from lower silver, but I swear I had done everything in my power to be a decent human being and create the right psychological condition for my team to win. I kept doing most of these, except for the avoiding to flame part. Lately I begin to feel more and more helpless. I started playing ranked games in late 2012, and people weren't THAT bad back then. Players did flame. We all get frustrated about the fate of our LP. But severe humiliation only happened once in a blue moon. I could actually recall incidence where my team flamed. Now it happens almost every lost game that I completely lost count of how many flamers I encountered. People just refuse to communicate with the team. They don't listen to pings. They are off minding their business regardless of how their actions adversely affect the team. They put the blame on others even when they are part of the factors that lead up to the defeat. I remember on one occasion a Karthus went jungling. He did pretty well actually. But he kept asking us push to the inhibitor when we are supposed to defend our own. Then he refused to group with us and chose to backdoor their open inhib. And he afk-ed after he failed, saying that 'we deserved to lose coz we were not respecting his orders'. Everything positive I said went down to drain just like that. At my worst times, I only won 4 ranked games out of 20. To say I was furious and frustrated was an understatement. I actually told my friend that I lost faith in humanity during these loss streak. Then I just decided that my attitude doesn't matter anymore and forwent all my good girl manners. There was this game where bot lane was getting camped by jungle and mid and our kat, who is supposed to be an exceptional roamer, kept farming mid without even so much as pushing down their tower. We hugged the tower till there was no tower to hug. Worse still, she flamed us for feeding. I lost it. I started being sarcastic, and the worst I said was telling her to rot in hell. I guess the loss of my honor crest was justified after all. After that game, I muted all the toxic players - a function that I never thought of using before, but it's better that way so I don't get emotionally affected and flame back. I had been diagnosed of depression before. League was my escape. Now that the circumstances has deteriorated, I have every reason to close my eyes and ears towards this negative crap. I'm tired. I'm spent. I would positive in winning games like a regular person normally would, but I don't have an ounce of positivity to spare on losing games anymore. I believe a number of people here use League as an escape like I do. There are people out there who has family issues, relationship problems, difficulties at work and studies etc. Your attitude in the game can heavily influence their mood. I really hope that every player can remember that the people you insult in game are actual human beings made of flesh and blood. Respect them as you would respect your friends and family, especially towards your teammates. Begin by muting toxic players to avoid adding to the negativity. Save trolling for custom games or bot games - or at least normal games. Help your teammates in any constructive ways posssible. Gradually, learn to befriend them. Give the compassionate people a reason to be the nice person in game as they are in real life. Infect the toxic with friendliness. Make this community a better place.