Perma ban discussion
This account, which was my main back in the day. Has been permanently banned. I wish to have it unbanned. If I post this in the wrong area I apologize. I do not care for this to be public, I'd rather speak to moderators about it. If it has to be public, so be it. Idk the rules on forums, haven't read them. Will eventually.
I am schitzo-effective, and currently take psyche meds. Which I'm willing to give pictures of this to a moderator only. It Isn't for public disclosure do to the fact that it has my personal information on it. I only say I'm willing to do this, because people lie...
I'm far more stable than I once was do to my psyche meds, counseling and having a mental health manager as well as other support. I am legally disabled because of my mental illness which runs in my family. Other than that I'm not really sure what else to say.
I do honestly still rage sometimes. But it Isn't nearly as frequent as it once was. I'm also 30, so I handle things different just because I'm older. I've been playing League of Legends a long time. Since season three if I recollect correctly. I understand the game better, and realize that my inability to climb. Was mostly because of me, not other people.
I have literal stress balls that I use. I am more likely to curse out loud, versus typing it. I think getting frustrated just makes a human. How we handle it, determines rather or not we're an adult or not. A really important thing to note is. I am not self-medicating via alcohol anymore. I rarely drink, if at all these days. Obviously alcohol is an intoxicant, so if I have a rage issue. Ya... I'm sure you get me. I am still going to a substance abuse councilor. But it has been almost 20 days since I drank any booze. Considering how often and how much I used to drink. I'm doing good!
I want this account back because it is so old. Call it what you like, but flashing my bronze season 3 logo makes me feel special.
Eh anyways, thanks for considering either way. I suppose to make it official. I apologize for past behavior. I know I won't be perfect in the future. But ever step towards progress, is a step not taken in vayne(lolz?).
Have a good day!