Realizing my own inabiities with no idea how to fix them perfectly
Good news. I'm finally not willing to actually focus on what my foes really think of me when I lose.
Bad news. I realize that I'm basically titled from my own bad plays and overall incompetence. Cause let's face it, to quote unswlolsoc on his Leaguecraft video on solo queue, most people possess unconscious incompetence or conscious incompetence.
Cause I'm basically angry at myself for being very stupid at this game in general, no matter how long I've played it.
I know I've done dumb shit, and normally when it comes to a game in League, it results in me getting so mad and tilted because I feel as though all I can do is just let my team and lane die for free while I try so hard to find a solution, only the solution doesn't come about at all and I get angry enough to say shit like this:
"Can you honestly rely on my brain level to even know how to exactly win?!" "Fine then, then you tell me how to fucking win this game outside of just farming while they take objectives for free because of my stupidity! I fed my laner in the first place!" "Only god knows what kind of god-level-outplay I need to do in order to win this damn game....cause I sure as hell don't know."
Those quotes basically sum up to me getting mad at the fact that others for expecting someone like me with limited abilities in general to do their job, despite the HUGE chance range of failure on my end.
Just not knowing shit when a game starts to go bad is pretty much one of the biggest sources of my tilt; possibly why I'm also sensitive to what others think about me (via my rank or losing in lane) because in my mind, stupidity is fatal; and NO ONE likes a stupid person a huge amount of the time.
I always compare it to the analogy of me being a war general who's stats for military tactics are in the lowest range possible, and that he basically got most of his subordinates killed due to such horrible lack of knowledge. And because it's considered that bad of a choice (a la "picking a losing battle"), I can't ever forgive myself for it.
Update: Mainly this tends to be something difficult to tackle because most people you see never want to admit their mistakes and blame their team and shit.
Edit: This account I'm posting on is banned; I have a smurf called NewYetOldName
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. Tank Wukong is 100% garbage. If you're having trouble against stuff like
then get Tabi.
on Wukong. Ever.
. If you need lifesteal and waveclear, go
. If you need the extra sticking power from BotRK then go
. Just please never go
kind of sucks on Wukong now. The build path is terrible because Wukong needs flat AD to function. I rarely ever build it and when I do its because I'm behind and want the extra HP
first unless you're against a tank. Wukong is trash against tanks. Get a