I'm giving up being a nice guy. Its just not worth it anymore.

So I have come to the lowest point I could even bring myself as a league player and that's just letting the inner ass hole inside me come out. (Jesus this phrase even crept me out). I have tried everything but I lack the self control to not become one anymore. Forcing myself to be nice and silent to those who clearly act like idiots or jerks to those around them. I am not blaming them for my actions I blame myself for lacking the ability to be able to handle this. Though jesus christ, NOTHING IS WORTH THIS! This realization hit me so hard that It ended up giving me a massive headache. No goal that league provides is worth any of this. Putting up with countless ass holes and players who would rather not improve while holding others back is not worth the work or effort. I simply can not see a reason to not simply say "hey get your head out of your ass and stop repeating the same mistake over and over" to a player making mistakes or to a player who is trash talking to "stop crawling up your own ass or you will end up choking on your own head". I know it isn't right to say this but until someone can convince me other wise I am not going to hold back regardless of punishments.