Intentional feeder begging for a second chance
I know some of you might downvote this thread before you continue to the next sentence, so all I'm asking is that you at least read what I have to say before you comment.
First of all, this is not my main account, if you've been around long enough, you will know me as "Hallbuster" who used to frequent the board before I was banned by the moderators for my low-quality posts. As such, I had to create a secondary for this purpose and in doing so, realized that I just don't have the commitment to get my smurf to the same place as my main anymore.
https://wol.gg/stats/na/hallbuster/
Riot Jenny, who I emailed a few days has already sent me replies, stated the ban will not be lifted so I was desperate enough to try to find a way to get unbanned here(Yes it's a 0.01% chance).
My main account wasn't only important because the 100 hours I spent on LoL took about a year, nor was money because I didn't buy RP on my main account. I felt it mattered because gaming was risky in college when most students didn't have time for MOBA's when it cut into the time studying. As a second-year student, my schedule is only going to get tighter and so is my time. I can't afford to grind endlessly to get back where I started.
To say what I did was excusable regarding the circumstances, will, of course, gain me no sympathy but will at least try to understand my point of view of view. The 2 games in the link below were the games that got me banned, I do not deny inting but please at least hear my reason:
Game 1: https://matchhistory.na.leagueoflegends.com/en/#match-details/NA1/2702659428/82899218?tab=overview
I was severely tilted after several losses before this game, after a failed gank attempt from Zac. I tried to secure the kill with my flash and ignite but failed when I used my abilities on a minion instead. After dying to Jax in lane once, I overextended despite the obvious danger of an enemy jungler nearby and died again. Zac refused to camp my lane again, prompting me to roam mid, only to feed the third kill to the other teams Yasuo in advance. After dying to the enemy jungler, Zac left the game leaving our team to fight a 4 vs 5, never to come back(even if he did, the level difference would mean the game was over). Finding no reason to continue, I walked to our bot lane and gave several kills hoping to end the game faster.
Note: You can check the match overview for proof
Game 2: https://matchhistory.na.leagueoflegends.com/en/#match-details/NA1/2702651861/82899218?tab=overview
This game was a struggle even before it started. Losing first pick and my one trick to my lane opponent meant I had to pick a champion I had no idea how to play, Swain. Having bot lose lane before I did didn't improve my moral and after dying twice to my lane opponent due to my lack of experience I proceeded to walk down mid and later bot. I didn't believe we could salvage the game and would only prolong it.
Yes, I have been suspended for 14 days for intentionally feeding before, but not in this severity. Even if I gave up when the game was ending I still did significant damage output. If you check statistics, I was still doing more or at least as much as my team.
During the time I started feeding, I was sleep deprived, hungry, and frustrated with myself for losing so many games in such a short time period. I promise I will not let it get to that point and stop if It ever gets there.
If you read the entire blocks of paragraphs, thank you and if you want, feel free to downvote me now.