This is what it feels like when the poro's cry

I'm not sure how to tell this story without sounding really troubled but I feel I must share part of my story to illustrate the need for a good system when it comes to ranked games and trolls.

First a bit about myself, I am an avid gamer I have been playing League of Legends since closed beta and had a lot of fun over the years also spent a lot of money and shed a few tears. I suffer from serious medical conditions which has led to depression becoming a major part of my life, recently things have gotten really bad but I have been trying to keep hopeful and one of the things that gives me hope is the dream that I can make it to gold rank before this seasons is over. "If you played since beta how are you not higher ranked", one might ask well because until the servers were moved/fixed it was simply to laggy I didn't want to cause my team to lose but when they were fixed I recently have had time to invest in my dream of getting to gold. It has been hard because even though I won 8-10 of my placement games due to my lack of prior ranked games it placed me in bronze 4 (my normal draft mmr at the season start places me with all gold/plat players) ELO HELL is a real thing I have been there, I suffered the climb but with the help of a friend I recently got to silver2!!!

I was very happy it seemed like I will make it before the deadline, however my illness is now causing a serious roadbump in my goal to reach gold before the season ends. It's very personal but I may have to be hospitalized very soon, this game and my push to gold is part of what is giving me hope right now yes a game can be a source of strength in hard times. Than enter the troll, trolls are a part of this game I know I have played for year but in this particular incident was to much I one a ranked game, than I lost 2 ranked games so the first loss must have put me to 0 so I than had one loss at 0 before the game in question. Hardcore trolling ensues from the pick screen he was last pick however somebody even tried to dodge but it was less than a second to late, once in the game this individual started to interfere with the lanes and right away got to work feeding the other team, he even went through the trouble of making sure to feed each individual champion of the other team. We were speechless, one of the people on my team was so furious he just stopped playing and demanded we all did the same but my duo partner and myself have carried games like this before and tried our best even acing the other team 3v5. However we couldn't compete with the feeder/afk, if the afk had even started playing we could have won but I can't blame him for being upset. I told this person that this game could really cost me and I was near the bottom of my division, my friend was in a series as was the other person trying but they did not care, that kind of malicious behavior in my eyes is worth of a permanent account closure anyways it was all very unfortunate. So when the game finally ended, to my shock and utter horror I somehow had been sent to silver 3...why? I had only one other loss at 0 LP I literally broke down. With all that I am going through right now why did this have to happen, I know it's the internet and people are unkind but for me I am looking at being in the hospital as my chance for the one thing I really wanted to accomplish went down the drain. This kind of thing happens all the time, I know and its unfair but not much can be done. Everyone reported this person I'm sure of it, no punishment will make up for the lost time though even if I had won every game after I was looking at 6 to make up for it.

I did something I have never done I wrote to riot pleading with them if there was anything they could do but sadly they cannot it is simply not possible the employee was very respectful however and for that I am grateful. I do not want to let this bring me down I really hope that was not the turning point that will cause me to be unable to reach gold but it is possible and no amount of punishment dolled out on this person will make up for that. I really do think there needs to be a loss forgiveness system when you are trolled out of your hard earned division or your series/qualifier games, also I think they need to take a look at how quickly you can drop from a division compared to how long it takes to get there, it took 2 games that is less than I would need to get into that division somebody could see that you are in a similar spot and troll a game which amounts to a personal attack far worse than any verbal abuse imo.

This is my story I'm not sure how it will end, will I get to gold I don't know I will try my hardest I'm not one to give up easily the thing is for me though there may not be a next year to try this again. If you are having a bad day and feel like trolling a game will make you feel better please consider what that game could mean to somebody cause you never know. To all the people suffering from illness and depression stand tall don't give up and hold on to your dreams no matter how trivial they may seem to others, to all the people who go out of their way to hurt others in this way you DO NOT deserve to play this game end of story.

I included a picture mapping out the deaths of the feeder, I have not got a notice saying "this player has been disciplined" this incident has made me realize the need for some changes to the ranked queue system as well as the tribunal (of which I was a member when that was part of the game). inb4 all the people who might insult me for having an illness (really guys?) and the QQ, this is a true story save your negativity for your own self.