Am I still playing the way I'm intended to?
I haven't much to say this time. After losing enough games and putting up with- well, I'll call them people out of respect for the forum, I can certainly say that my fun doesn't come from challenging myself or right clicking towers anymore. What I've come to accept now is that I'm only ever enjoying the game when my opponent is miserable. I want my opponents day to be as ruined as I can get it to somehow justify wasting my pitiful life playing this game. I don't want to have to push them to it, I want them to just be unhappy so others can match me.
I'm not the only schadenfreude here either. Every other game I play with friends I get one of those huff-and-puff compensating-failure types that get progressively more mad when they lose but zealously optimistic when they win. Or those "should be banned by now" trash talkers. They know none of us really care that they're alive. It seems that almost every player on the game has some reason to watch others writhe.
Is this really still playing League of Legends? Am I still playing this game the way it was intended to be played?
Oh and on a smaller note if I had the money I would legitimately have already gone to therapy rather than wait for my crucifixion by posting on the boards.