Here for some discussion.

So, I have been playing LoL for a long time now. This account has been on NA for only a year, but I am playing League since Season 3, with occasional leaves and returns. Now I most actively play on my EUW account with a nickname A Nasty Boy, this account I mostly use for Boards because of my posts history. Playing on EUW just because most of my friends are still in Europe, even though I moved to the U.S., and I like playing with them. You can look it up if you want, but you won't find much except for defeats for the past 3 or 4 days...

I play League for my leisure, btw, college is pretty draining, and LoL is something I can use to unwind from a tiring day. And you know, there are matches that are good. Not a rare occurrence was a match where I'd lose, but then sit back and be like "wow, this was a damn good game!" And I would still find joy in congratulating the opponent, giving and receiving honors, and so on.

But for the first time in these four or five years that I am playing League, it started getting to me. I recently (well, like about a year and a half ago) realized the influence of toxicity on the games, online in general, and since then try to keep my rage levels to the minimum, and have been pretty successful in that so far. But this past week... I dunno what happened, or whose path I've crossed, but there was SO much hate in the games. Constant BM, stable leaves or troll picks (not talking about off-meta picks, but, like, mid Nunu that runs under towers and dies the whole game), and just in general condescending behavior ("I play better than you, so shut up") started to get to me.

Generally, when I see such behavior I just mute people, then report them in the end screen. Instant Feedback Report Messages make me feel a bit better about that game where enemy Ahri kept calling everyone "slugs that are not evolved enough to think logically". But with every next game lost, people just mocking, insulting and flaming you post-match... playing only leaves a bitter aftertaste. And the situation with the new meta, after the buff of lethality and tons of nerfs and buffs, makes it even more difficult for me to somehow adapt and find joy in this activity again. It essentially boiled down to me clicking on "Find Match" and wondering if it's gonna be a troll pick in the champ select because of autofill, or is it gonna be a walking flamethrower of a teammate this match... There was a time a couple days ago when after playing a 60-minute match and losing because someone rage quit, I went into a new game and wrote from the start "I am a bit tilted, so sorry if I don't communicate too much, let's just play." And was silent the whole game. I think we won it, actually, but I don't remember. The point is... I don't have any desire for interaction with community anymore. It just doesn't feel worth it...

And just to clarify: I in no way claim that I am a good player or a standard of self-control. I too do dumb things and lose my temper sometimes. It just happens a lot less now since I started reminding myself it's just a game.

Sorry if this post has no point, I was just wondering if anyone else is experiencing something similar... Like, a loss streak that appeared out of nowhere and kind of just bummed you out completely... IDK. Those were my thoughts the site prompted me to write. If you are willing to share, I'd love to read yours below, too. :)