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An Open Apology to the Community and Riot Games

EyesOfTheFox·6/5/2019, 12:35:09 AM·31 votes·15,526 views

So something happened to my account recently and I wanted to take the time to say...

I'm sorry for the things I've said in game in the heat of the moment to fellow players. I'm sorry to Riot for not making the game a safe space for other players.

Everyone has their own struggles in life and, like me, some people use League to escape from that struggle. In a competitive environment that forces people to work together who may not normally, it is very easy to become tilted. It is even easier to flame in chat because there is no face, only a character. I have taken advantage of that and it does not make me feel like a good person.

I do not blame anyone but myself. It's just hard sometimes, as I do struggle with mental health issues. I know there are a lot of others out there that do as well, and I could have very well been flaming one of those people or more without that understanding.

So many times things happen in this game that are outside of our control, and I didn't take seriously the things I could control.

While often times we do have to be poked a few times before we snap, I found my threshold for snapping becoming lower and lower.

I will not tell you what happened with my account. Nor will I try to justify my actions as they are not justifiable.

Everyone that plays this game deserves to have a good time, and I would love to prove that I can be a part of that good time.

For everyone that's every been tilted, for everyone that's every been hurt, for everyone that I've ever wronged...

I am truly sorry and ask if there is any way for you to offer me a second chance to prove that you are all deserving of better treatment from me, and help me to become a better person through being positive together.

Thank you for your time and best of luck on the fields of justice!

53 Comments

Divin1ty6/5/2019, 12:38:01 AM14 votes

Oh wow, I thought it's another ,,UnBaNn Me PlOx Me SoRrY!!11!" like you see them everyday. I am pleasantly surprised, that this isn't the case.

My tipp for you, make yourself a new account. There is no chance you get this one back, but you can prove it to yourself that you can do it. Get that Honor LVL 5! :)

SovereignMammal6/5/2019, 4:23:19 AM7 votes

Don't apologize. Apologizing has bred the weak nanny state we now live in.

Gjelstad6/5/2019, 9:21:01 AM4 votes

Git gud

Impractical16/5/2019, 12:07:14 PM4 votes

I will say that this is one the first board posts I've made, been playing league on and off since 2011.

I was hardstuck gold for the majority of this season and I never understood why I wasn't improving until I actually looked at myself.

I would give first blood or a teammate would make a mistake and I would low-key flame them. Nothing along the lines of total toxicity but just enough to where I see that I myself probably tilted my own teammates.

A Mia ping when their laner roams and ganks my lane or a "thanks for not following them and letting me get 2v1ed", etc. Stuff like that.

I don't know when it happened exactly but I stopped myself. When teammates die I let them know that it's ok. That it's just a death or two. Or I point out that since their Jung ganked bot, ours secured his entire top side jg, or rift herald, or something along those lines.

Even if I'm getting flamed for something I simply just don't type anything back. I look at the map, objectives, different things like that and try to figure out what "I" need to do.

And since then I've been able to climb up to plat 3. I guess the point I'm trying to say is to move on and worry about yourself. Because you are the only constant in your games. Yeah you will feed every now and then or a teammate will feed every now and then, but just let it go. Continue to move on and continue to improve yourself both in the game and outside.

You have a really tough game or get flamed for something you did, take a 5-10 minute break before queing up again. Go smoke a cigarette, get a snack, watch a YouTube video, literally anything to get your mind off of what just happened and I promise it will help you in the long run.

hihhihihihi12126/5/2019, 12:08:27 PM4 votes

What a sore loser lol just make a new account.

Light Burner6/5/2019, 2:13:48 PM2 votes

Why would you post this? So many people believe you're actually apologizing that its sad. If you were perma banned that means you were chat banned for 10 games, 25 games and banned for 14 days prior to this and still continued to be aggressive towards others. Now you're coming on here after the 4th punishment of the exact same thing you got punished for 3 times prior and saying you're sorry?

What you're really after is stated in your last paragraph, "ask if there is any way for you to offer me a second chance to prove that you are all deserving of better treatment from me". If you wanted to prove something prove it to yourself because the people you hurt in games you already hurt theyre long gone you wont ever see them again. So if you wanted to bring a positive attitude do it in game not on the board with words.

SunkySam6/5/2019, 3:41:46 AM2 votes

You deserve to get yourself a new account and get to the max honor level for the positive impact you will have on the community

Aynath Crescent6/5/2019, 11:04:39 AM2 votes

It feels good to read posts like that. If you really mean what you say, return to the Fields of Justice with a fresh start, and bring the spark of positivity to this community !

Neumím Riven6/5/2019, 11:09:53 AM2 votes

Is this real or is it another one of the made up posts to make this community better.

Verbally Abusing6/5/2019, 3:10:07 PM2 votes

You know why they call it a perm ban because its permanent. Also post your chat log

Hvsao6/5/2019, 2:40:17 PM1 votes

Make an account with that "Reformed" username, and climb back up here. We'll be waiting.

Cadkaw6/6/2019, 11:51:02 AM1 votes

Trundle is a troll... jinx thrives on chaos... Lissandra killed her sister... Thresh stole the soul of Lucian’s wife... Teemo loves when enemy team rages... Evelyn feasts on the misery of others... You can literally taunt, laugh at, or dance on the graves of your enemy(plus numerous troll emotes)... Riot gives you the tools to be toxic... similar to how riot has Evelyn say promiscuous things but will attempt banning someone with a name, SexualGirl... Riot wants to babysit, so the community has not learnt to deal with their own problems.. an over bearing parent only cripples it’s child. Have never seen a strict system ever work... 10 years and people are still being people... Riot’s attempts are feeble because they try to control emotion.

MorgManBasher6/5/2019, 6:56:18 PM1 votes

Me reading this thread

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La Belle Sauvage6/5/2019, 7:02:22 PM1 votes

This line:

"I am truly sorry and ask if there is any way for you to offer me a second chance to prove that you are all deserving of better treatment from me, and help me to become a better person through being positive together."

Undoes everything you were trying to accomplish.

Not sure if you are intentionally arrogant or not but regardless it's clear you're not sincere.

TO Lenthe6/5/2019, 7:29:58 PM1 votes

I am 100% sure I never faced off against you, but nevertheless I accept your apology, as someone who's part of the League Community. Though I reckon your punishment was deserved, still I'm sorry that this happened to you. Let this be a lesson for the future: being a douche to others has negative consequences. Oh and I saw someone here who said that online flaming and whatever has no real life impact on people's lives? Wrong. I quit this game a couple of times a few years ago because flaming had made me so insecure about my skills that I felt bad about being on other people's team. I was afraid to play ranked cause it would show how bad I surely was. There's even a specific Shaco that made such an impression on me 4 years ago that I'll never forget that game. Be nice, civil people in videogames, peeps. The chat being online maybe makes it easier to type hurtful stuff, but it doesn't make it any easier for the flamed person unless they have emotional capacity to let it pass them by. And you simply can't assume everyone has that. So yes, I'm glad you can reflect on your mistakes now. If you do decide to create an account and try again, I wish you good luck.

CyanSolution2476/6/2019, 2:36:04 AM1 votes

Yea sorry i enjoyed the post and i honestly feel bad for you but riot's ban hammer is fucking ridiculous and there is no chance of you getting your account back. when my brothers account got banned all that i learned was: flaming randoms is ok in riots books but the moment you flame your 5 man premade they hit you with the ban hammer... don't even know how to much a hate riots ban philosophy.

Yuumi or Dodge6/6/2019, 8:43:38 AM1 votes

I've had accounts permabanned, more than I would care to admit here, because I've done so before and had extremely unpleasant experiences.

I never learned to control myself. Now, finally, I'm doing it. I no longer speak in game, ever. All I say is "gj", "wp", "gg", or the occasional "baron pls" or "drag up". And I firmly believe it's for the better.:)

Cevrad6/5/2019, 12:16:15 PM1 votes

Nope, they will not unban accounts, even if you have no additional history and were wrongly banned for telling toxic people to shut the F** up. Had an account banned 4 years ago no and it won't ever see the light of day again with approx 2 grand in skins on it.