I'm tired and frustrated with League :(
It feels like LITERALLY every game is an uphill battle whether it be feeders / Int / just people straight trolling and just plain unskilled I'm at my wits end I play and play and play and get SO tilted man I feel like I try so hard in games and its just rewarded with getting shit on or stomped because the team cant function well enough as the enemy team or from the many other reasons listed above. Every game feels like a constant struggle of who has more meta champs or who has less feeders. I am an extremely consistent player I rarely feed in my games I pride myself on being consistent as a player of almost 7-8 years I'm tired, I am tired of the bad teammates I am tired of the feeders I am definitely not the best player in the world whatsoever but its just so frustrating trying soooo hard and you just get shit on by factors you cant control.
[zombie-nunu-bummed]
I've watched my replays, watched pro streamers endless amount of YouTube videos on how to climb / improve at league I follow the tips but the outside factors always triumph my own attempts at being a better player. I play majority ranked as I am an extremely competitive person I somehow managed to get to gold 2 after years and years of climbing I personally find normal's boring for the fact that there not as competitive. Unfortunately I let these games get the best of me and I get so upset and I flame and say useless dumb shit and received a 14 day ban last month and as they were handing out ranked rewards near the end of season all my friends were talking about there rewards ( they barely play ranked but they dig the rewards low bronze / silver ) I'm like oh I didn't receive anything yet maybe it just takes time. Nope I later figure out that because I was toxic for a few games I am not able to receive years worth of rewards for my climb and that's just the ultimate disappointment for me. IMO I think denying toxic people the chance to receive ranked banners / strictly ranked rewards for your personal behavior is dumb as hell ( player behavior should be separate from ranked achievements ) like it makes no sense. I get it tho I was a toxic fuck and I deserve it nothing I can do about it now. Losing over and over really affects my mental psych because I do really want to win and I do really try every game and it goes nowhere. So I am tired I am thinking of taking a break or just plain quitting I don't really find the same enjoyment in the game as I used to. League just feels like an abusive relationship. I love the game for what it was. Thanks for taking the time to read this if you did or not w/e just needed to vent.