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I suffered what seemed to be a heart attack today following a collapse but still can't quit

ryona·4/19/2018, 5:33:59 AM·2 votes·3,014 views

Note: It's really up to you to believe me whether this is fabricated or not based on how I am typing, but you can base my sincerity on the amount of effort I put into this post.

I sincerely believe you people that idolize Diamond as an elo really have no idea what it's like. It's just full of horrible, horrible people that try their best to provoke you and will never be meaningfully punished no matter how hard you desperately try to work with support tickets and reports.

Last night I slid over from Diamond 2 59 LP to the verge of Diamond 4. This has happened repeatedly this season but seeing the same circumstances of awful people screwing with me again coupled with how hard I tried to preserve my apparent good fortune by seldom queuing and planning, I just couldn't obviously take it anymore and flew into an insane rage in the game. The sheer anger and distress of knowing these people you either idolize or will believe to not be real getting away with their griefing while I only jeopardized myself so much by finally lashing out caused me to suffer what seemed to be a minor heart attack following a collapse.

The fact this happened and the fact I simply can't enjoy LoL at all (blatantly evident by the paranoia I display and what I keep changing my name to out of spite) would be a rational reasoning for anyone to just quit but even now, many hours later, I just feel too compelled to consider playing this game in spite of how horribly it is affecting my state of mind and body because I can't shake off the idea I invested so many years into something I used to love be completely meaningless, especially when I am constantly hanging by such a thread to my goals I set so long ago.

8 Comments

fatherdarius4/19/2018, 12:14:43 PM3 votes

Don't fall prey to the "sunk cost fallacy".

Just because you've invested money and time into something doesn't mean you should continue to do so. This applies to video games, repairing vehicles and old computers that repeatedly break down, holding on to failing relationships, continued membership in religious cults, dead-end jobs, drug use and more. It's never too late to 'get out'.

As someone else mentioned it might have been a panic attack. Any stress (even something like a Chess match) or sometimes even NO stress can trigger a panic attack.

Maybe a doctor can prescribe you Xanax or something. I guarantee you wouldn't be the only league player who uses prescribed benzos - I do now and then, and it has nothing to to with league and everything to do with mental health.

Also, a couple of years ago at work I was assigned the case of a 17yo who seemingly suffered a seizure while driving home after football practice and wrecked his vehicle. After a few doctor visits it was determined that low electrolytes caused trouble with his vagus nerve and induced a cardiac incident.

So things can happen even to young people. Take your health seriously, stay hydrated, and hopefully we'll see you happy and healthy again on the rift!

EL HAMSTERO4/19/2018, 6:16:09 AM2 votes

it might have been a panic attack. you should see a doctor and quit the game! its not that good.

Telephone Booth4/19/2018, 9:32:08 PM1 votes

Stop idolizing people who play video games. Like damn. What did you expect? They're just people. Who are all these people idolizing diamond players? I would love to be diamond just for my own satisfaction... not because I idolize strangers who play there lol. Sounds like your illusions were shattered. I've had panic attacks over real life things, like giving a speech as a best man at a wedding, or having an important meeting that my job depends on... But over a video game? Wooo... You need a break lol. I had to take a break during that time because I couldn't concentrate on the game.