I suffered what seemed to be a heart attack today following a collapse but still can't quit

Note: It's really up to you to believe me whether this is fabricated or not based on how I am typing, but you can base my sincerity on the amount of effort I put into this post.

I sincerely believe you people that idolize Diamond as an elo really have no idea what it's like. It's just full of horrible, horrible people that try their best to provoke you and will never be meaningfully punished no matter how hard you desperately try to work with support tickets and reports.

Last night I slid over from Diamond 2 59 LP to the verge of Diamond 4. This has happened repeatedly this season but seeing the same circumstances of awful people screwing with me again coupled with how hard I tried to preserve my apparent good fortune by seldom queuing and planning, I just couldn't obviously take it anymore and flew into an insane rage in the game. The sheer anger and distress of knowing these people you either idolize or will believe to not be real getting away with their griefing while I only jeopardized myself so much by finally lashing out caused me to suffer what seemed to be a minor heart attack following a collapse.

The fact this happened and the fact I simply can't enjoy LoL at all (blatantly evident by the paranoia I display and what I keep changing my name to out of spite) would be a rational reasoning for anyone to just quit but even now, many hours later, I just feel too compelled to consider playing this game in spite of how horribly it is affecting my state of mind and body because I can't shake off the idea I invested so many years into something I used to love be completely meaningless, especially when I am constantly hanging by such a thread to my goals I set so long ago.