How a mental disorder got me banned.

Í miss you·3/10/2018, 3:37:28 AM·2 votes·622 views

Excuse my language but it may be the only way i can express myself properly. Don't take anything of what i say too seriously as i am just sharing my story.

Let me also add i in no way want sympathy or pity from anyone thank you! I at 14 was diagnosed as manic. I can't stop trying to fucking argue and love people to look up to me. I am not saying this to get unbanned but i just wanted to share how i think it's funny how my disorder can ruin even the things i do in the privacy of my own fucking home . Gaming was my escape from the way i act in the streets. Hard to hold a job too when i THINK someone looks at me wrong and i go off FULL BLAST on there asses. Well have fun on the rift kids.

ALSO - I don't take my meds often since they get me drowsy and give me fucked up nightmares.

17 Comments

EvilDustMan3/10/2018, 4:58:22 AM3 votes

Try new meds or taking them right before bed. I switched from effexor to Prozac and take my rispersone at night.

The rispersone gives me sleep paralysis sometimes. But it's worth not being a wreck

Negativity3/10/2018, 3:56:46 AM2 votes

You should find meds that work, not settle for one that doesn’t. First major problem. Find a doc who knows about your disorder. I know there’s more than one source and finding the right one will keep you sane and happy

fatherdarius3/10/2018, 4:00:42 PM2 votes

My disorder can ruin my game. Chronic renal stones, and often on prescribed opiates.

Don't play ranked when feeling high, even if it's prescribed. :\

Zombie Gerbil3/10/2018, 3:55:41 AM2 votes

This game requires a certain amount of self-control to play and maintain a stable account. This game isn't meant for everyone and definitely not meant for someone in your condition if their temper isn't in check. Having a mental disorder will never be an excuse for someone to be or partly be invulnerable to the system.

There are plenty of other games out there to play to escape from reality. Don't let your issue take over your life and don't play games like League, because people in this community can be extremely unforgiven. Good luck.

A Pretty Unicorn3/11/2018, 2:07:46 AM1 votes

Sucks. I have clinical depression and generalized anxiety disorder (I'm medicated now, for the third time, with something that actually helps this time). The latter used to make it almost impossible for me to make myself play ranked games.

SavageConcordia3/10/2018, 4:16:15 AM1 votes

things i do in the privacy of my own fucking home

Except when you are talking to 4-9 other people in their homes. When you play league it is no longer private, you are interacting with several other people and when you argue and verbally abuse them it is no different than if you did it on the street or in a movie theater. If you can't manage your mental health to a point that you can be in public without attempting to harass those around you, you need to talk with your doctor and try to retool your medicine to a point where you can because this must have larger impacts than just league and should be sorted asap for your own well-being.

Modi3/10/2018, 3:46:24 PM1 votes

i think it's funny how my disorder can ruin even the things i do in the privacy of my own fucking home

While I can empathize with your situation, that is not an accurate comparison. Playing a game with other people online is not much different from playing chess in a park with another random person. Your actions affect others, thus there will be consequences for your actions, disability or no disability.

RedPannda3/10/2018, 5:58:41 PM1 votes

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Excuse my language but it may be the only way i can express myself properly. Don't take anything of what i say too seriously as i am just sharing my story.

Let me also add i in no way want sympathy or pity from anyone thank you! I at 14 was diagnosed as manic. I can't stop trying to fucking argue and love people to look up to me. I am not saying this to get unbanned but i just wanted to share how i think it's funny how my disorder can ruin even the things i do in the privacy of my own fucking home . Gaming was my escape from the way i act in the streets. Hard to hold a job too when i THINK someone looks at me wrong and i go off FULL BLAST on there asses. Well have fun on the rift kids.

ALSO - I don't take my meds often since they get me drowsy and give me fucked up nightmares.

I understand where you are coming from, my brother has that on top of a nice heaping scoop full of schizophrenia and bipolar. He hasn't been able to work for almost 10 years and probably will never have a relationship again. He has lost all his friends and now he just lives in a tiny apartment with a dog and never socializes or interacts with the world at all. We try to help him but he refuses almost any kind of help. Interacting with him is completely random, some days he will be almost normal and then in a moment he will turn into a monster. Every personality trait he had went away, the brother I knew and grew up with died somewhere along the way and what we got in replacement isn't the same person.

Good luck with your issues, I am sure it is a serious struggle, the only thing I can suggest for league is to take steps to prevent yourself from having the chance to do the things that get you in trouble. If you have to rip the enter key out of your keyboard than do it. One thing I do that helps if I get heated is to just say what I am thinking out loud. Than I at least get to voice my frustrations but I am much less tempted to type them out.