I am sorry to the LoL community for being toxic!

I have gotten like, 16 accounts permabanned in the past year or less. I am here to say sorry for all the toxicity I was spreading, you may not have been directly affected but I have made the communities reputation bad so I am sincerely apologizing. I had a mentality that I thought I was "harming league of legends" and getting revenge. It was the opposite, I was harming myself and the people I was around. After 16 accounts being permabanned, I never thought about what I was doing, my life has been tough and as I have no friends at school for being the short kid, I turned to league as my joy and happiness with times of anger when my life was hard for me. I put that stress on teammates as if they did something, I'd get triggered easily. Recently I was playing on my brother's account, I got it banned for 2 weeks and even after that, as soon as I got on, after the suspension, I permanently banned it. My brother doesn't know about it as it is his smurf but he valued it a lot because he played since s1 and spent a lot of money on the now so-called "rare" skins. I am anxious about it whether or not I should not tell him. He will eventually find out but he will get extremely mad and I don't know...

I am so sorry. Thanks to the forums, I realized how much it's affecting the community and I have officially to this day, stopped being toxic. Now, I need help on how to control my toxicity level. In games where I face intentional feeders or trolls, I can't stand them and although I know not to get angry I do it anyways and get banned for it. PLEASE HELP and come up with possible solutions. I already feel like a great person. Thanks for helping me realize it forumers. [slayer-pantheon-thumbs]