Perma Ban

Hello everyone! I'd like to start off by saying I love league of legends. Ever since it first came out I was obssessed. Back in 2015 I remember my friends and I would stay up till 5 am or even pull all-nighters just because of how entertaining this game truly was. I've played league of legends for years until my account was permanently banned on the 11th of August in 2017. Although I was permanently banned over a year ago for toxic behavior (very very horrible stuff said) I didn't fully understand the severity of the matter. I will never be able to play league of legends ever again. I've spent close to a thousand hours and over hundreds of dollars on skins. I love this game and knowing I'll never be able to log into my account ever again makes me extremely depressed. I know I've been an extremely toxic player in the past but people are capable of change even if that means a few years down the line. Almost exactly one month before my permanent ban I was given a 2 week ban for extremely toxic behavior. I tried to reform to my best ability after that. most games I didn't even type in chat, but I slipped and was permanently banned. I know what I did was horribly wrong and only more damaging to this community. However, I feel like there should be some kind of repeal process or even a year ban for the people who really try hard to reform. Thank you.