I got banned for aggressively defending myself during a game?
Hi Everyone.
To get to the point: I was permanently banned for being offensive with my communication with my team in a Ranked match. I feel that the reason for my ban was disproportionate with the punishment I received.
I was playing Janna support, with a Quinn jungler and Miss Fortune ADC. The game started off rough, with MF and I getting out-harassed. We were unable to produce a neutral zone of control during laning phase. There was a moment in the game where I re-engaged a fight with the enemy ADC, Tristana and her support, Sona. The reason for re-engaging was because Tristana had around 25% of full HP while both me and MF were at half % of full HP. Plus, I had my exhaust. So my hope was that MF would engage, but she didn't. And unfortunately, I committed myself 100% to that fight and died. I did not use exhaust because having realized MF was not coming and the fact I was going to die, it was better to save it for another fight.
I was upset at this but it wasn't too much of a problem. Now, I openly criticized MF in team-chat for leaving me hanging like that when I strongly believed in the idea that we would have came out ahead, if MF had assisted me. She argued back saying that "I should have used exhaust then". This bewildered me because the whole dependency on using exhaust was MF's cooperation to fight. If she was not fighting, why should I use it? And I do understand that she may not have realized I had exhaust and therefore could not understand the intention, but if your support is pinging the ADC and still fighting, there must be a very strong reason why your support would do that. Otherwise you would never have a game where you could pursue a fight with the opponent.
When mid-game approached, our midlane, Vel'koz, had been killed by the enemy Ahri and there was a huge wave pushing to the turret. I was walking towards my lane from base when this happened. I checked the minimap to see if there was anyone that could defend it and there was Quinn farming blue while mid was getting attacked. So I criticized her decision-making there. My point was this: Why go for blue buff when it can be taken at any time, repeatedly, when your turret, which only spawns once, is being attacked?
Then out of nowhere after a small skirmish botlane, Quinn randomly claimed out of nowhere that I was just another person that didn't "main support" and that I just picked Janna because it was an easy champ to fill. Quinn couldn't be further from the truth. I had ADC selected as my primary role, and support being my second role. Meaning, I did have intentions of supporting if needed. Not to mention I picked Janna because I sincerely wanted to help the team with peeling against the likes of enemy champions like Jarvan, Tristana, and Ahri. Yet, Quinn had the audacity to make claims without any evidence. That was just plain ignorance and represents troll-like behaviour to me.
Then when mid/late-game rolled along, the enemy jungler, Jarvan, managed to land his Q+E combo on Quinn, knocking her up. Since I was right behind Quinn when it happened, I was knocked up as well. I was repeatedly pressing my ult after being knocked up, hoping that I could repel Jarvan away as soon as I landed to save Quinn, but unfortunately she died in the process. And what do I get? A mocking "nice ult" from Quinn. I explained to her that there was no way for me to save her from that situation because A) had I ulti'd earlier to repel Jarvan's Q+E, he still had his ult ready to jump back in to finish the job. Not only that, Ahri was behind with ult ready to jump in at the opportunity to clean up. Now, I fully understand this is hypothetical now, but my point is that the enemy team would have likely finished Quinn off anyways had I ulti'd in time to negate Jarvan's Q+E combo. I also stated that I should not have used my ultimate there to save Quinn anyway. This was because IMO the ult was better used to protect the entire team, instead of using it to save Quinn when it was her own doing that made her get caught. But you know what? Quinn took it out of context and said that I was purposely "avoiding" helping to peel for my teammates when that isn't the least bit true. I did as best as I could given the unfair judgement and scrutiny I received from her.
They also decided to bash me for not warding our jungle at one point during the game. They somehow didn't understand that I can't be trying to defend midlane from 4 enemies and warding at the same time. My priority was to first deter the enemies away from our turrets with the rest of the team, and then resume warding duties when no active threats were present. But nope, Quinn and MF just decide to find whatever reason they can to blame me for losing the game.
The way Quinn and MF criticized me without any merit backing it up was almost like they were purposely doing it to annoy me. To spite me. Finding ways to aggravate me into reacting in a negative way - to which I unfortunately reacted. Yes I admit I was in the wrong for cursing and calling names. I can't blame anyone else for that. I'm just an emotionally-charged player at times. I get frustrated and it shows in my chats. But you know what? Who wouldn't get pissed by how much of a jackass these folks were behaving?
On a sincere note though, when I criticize someone, I try to make it constructive. I try to present my reasons/analysis for the criticism. I just want people to show some empathy and try to listen to the meaning behind it sometimes times instead of checking its face value. I have done my best to understand theirs, but I often find myself confused by their explanation due to a lack of apparent supporting arguments. What is there for me to work with in those situations?
I get it. There's a mute button. But why do I have to resort to such a measure? Is the community that far way from being civilized that we have to use crude measures like that? I care about helping players understand their weaknesses so they can improve on it, despite knowing I will probably never see them again. Maybe I have to work on my approach sometimes - but that's no excuse for Quinn and MF "reaching" for any reason they can use to blame me without any strong evidence behind it.
This to me is why I feel like a permanent ban was just too much. I can't possibly imagine how less of a negative impact Quinn and MF felt compared to what I had to go through during that game. At most, I feel like my punishment would have been more appropriate had it been a chat ban rather than an account ban.
I kindly and most sincerely urge that the Riot staff finds it in their heart and mind to re-visit the game that got me banned, and to re-consider the severity of punishment I received. Thank you in advance.
Regards, Mushroom Dealer