What a fresh account and new plans for League has taught me

Alright, I'm going to preface this by saying 9 days ago, I received a 14-day Suspension on my "main" League of Legends Account for "Verbal Abuse". I logged in after taking a few hours' break from the game after I had lost a game that I found incredibly tilting to find myself sitting on a 2-week suspension. Because everyone wants to see it, here are some of the chat logs. Note I did cut out some of it and - before a Moderator says anything - the account name on it is an account I own. I'm not starting a witch hunt against myself...

> Game 1 In-Game

• AkumaNoKitsune1: you ping mia
• AkumaNoKitsune1: oh wait bronze
• AkumaNoKitsune1: my bad
• AkumaNoKitsune1: gg
• AkumaNoKitsune1: you're dumb
• AkumaNoKitsune1: you dont like truth kid
• AkumaNoKitsune1: when youre gambling with my lp yes
• AkumaNoKitsune1: you have no as
• AkumaNoKitsune1: im tilted by this team
• AkumaNoKitsune1: no wonder you lost
• AkumaNoKitsune1: ashe is this team's genji
• AkumaNoKitsune1: useless af
• AkumaNoKitsune1: gg report ashe pls
• AkumaNoKitsune1: my team inted to fizz gg Post-Game
• AkumaNoKitsune1: gg

> Game 2 In-Game

• AkumaNoKitsune1: if you vote no i will make sure game ends quick
• AkumaNoKitsune1: no that's master yi's fault
• AkumaNoKitsune1: all 9 of them
• AkumaNoKitsune1: i really dont care anymore yi
• AkumaNoKitsune1: i hope you lose LP
• AkumaNoKitsune1: i hope your family eats some really rancid cheese, and falls ill
• AkumaNoKitsune1: i mean you're losing LP
• AkumaNoKitsune1: so thats good
• AkumaNoKitsune1: gg come mas mierda yi Post-Game
• AkumaNoKitsune1: gg wp friends

I can't really defend myself in any of these cases. I flamed. I tilted. I said some pretty batshit crazy stuff (or just stuff that didn't makes sense). When I logged into a level 6 account (that by all means was a fresh account - never had any disciplinary warnings or anything), I was still pretty tilted. I played a few games, did alright... and logged out.

The next time I logged in, I realized that I needed to change. (I've had this before, ask me about my previous four permanent ban accounts where I didn't learn anything.) I wanted to live stream League eventually but I didn't want to go the route of our good friend Tyler1. I decided on a very ambitious gameplan. I would take my remaining existing account, and two fresh accounts, and play on them for the remainder of the season, and not play Ranked League of Legends. After getting the accounts ready (I needed the champions I wanted to play in Season 9 - so this was priority), I would take them into Ranked in Season 9 and try to get them into Gold+ ELO.

It didn't start out so well. After having some less than optimal games here and there (including a few with a Gold Smurf who quite literally screamed at me in Discord every time I made an intelligent call that he did not like), I came across some people who I duo'd with to pass the time. The games I played on this account went a long way to remind me what League is about - fun times with friends. Did I lose a good handful of games? Yeah, I did. Were some of them unfortunate... yeah. I played a game of Taric Support and go so flamed by my ADC I thought "What did I do to deserve this shit from him?" I've had games where I am pretty much useless outside of tossing out CC (because Ahri versus Viktor is a shitty matchup for Ahri) and some games where I feel like I was making the world move (Twisted Fate vs Draven Mid Lane... I don't know how I won this other than playing smart, waiting for ganks and grabbing as much farm as I could for items). A major difference across all the games (the Kreygasm wins, the Unfortunate losses, and the "OMFG We actually won that game" comebacks or the "OMFG We actually lost that game" throws) was the commitment to not use chat to verbally abuse teammates as well as to not take that shit from anyone else. Flame leads to flame. When one person flames, they subconsciously give others permission to flame as well and their behavior encourages others to behave the same way. I did this a lot... and I'm glad I was suspended. Another major difference across the games was taking the time to not let misplays/mistakes anger me. I've gotten upset at people not playing "correctly" and I've let it tilt me in previous games... sometimes so much that I actually straight throw the game entirely just to get out of the game rather than try and play it out the best I can. Coming to the realization that "I'm bad at League of Legends" and focusing on understanding where I can improve has made the grind to level 30 more tolerable and more enjoyable. I feel that if I can keep this up, I can achieve my goals in League and in live streaming.

Take it from me, a guy who has had four permabanned accounts for League of Legends (three of them are for verbal abuse). Don't do what I did and be super negative in chat. Be positive. Focus on the game. Always seek to improve and focus on your game plan and your game play. I hope my story is inspiring.