Remembering why I left league.

Over side man·3/27/2019, 4:31:10 AM·8 votes·10,386 views

I came back, after a few years. Been playing Dota 2 ever since. I always had this hate for League but I couldn't remember why. I came back to League a few times. But this time I decided to come back full time. Playing a few matches was fun, got to win and lose some. Then I got into ranked.

Ranked went well at first, I got through Iron to Bronze 2. Supporting all the way through. (I think I played adc a few times.) I won and lost a few matches but at least I "won". I was practically untiltable. Got my first S rank on Soraka. I always saved my team when Soraka was needed. I enjoyed League despite the random toxicity here and there.

But this is where it all goes downhill. I've been losing matches, 6 times in a row in fact. At first, the 2 losses was me saying. "Oh well, maybe that's that." But then the third loss came in and told myself. "What am I doing wrong..." Then the fourth, I actually tilted a little bit. Teammate dies super early, weirdly it was common in my matches. Not pointing fingers or anything. The fifth one. I got genuinely frustrated. Looking in my past matches it was either someone flaming or the team focusing the tank. The sixth one, I hated every moment. We, in fact, had a gangplank who might have been drunk in real life cause he kept going Leeroy Jenkins on the enemy team. He kept typing weird stuff too.

Then, the memory sets in. "Oh, now I remember why I left." Some of my hair during middle school actually fell out due to stress, specifically losing A TON in ranked. Two golf ball sized bald spots appeared behind my head, I scratched my head really hard because I was REAL mad the day it happened.
Turns out I got soo tilted the game actually degraded my health. Then I remembered, "OH that's why I wore this hat to school all the time." Took 9-11 months to recover that lost patch of hair on my noggin.

So yeah, I have this Love Hate for League. Well, mostly hate. I don't know if I should continue playing.

If you are reading this and you don't care that's fine. I write to vent out the stress. I have a great amount of tolerance now, back then it was you know, hormones. Mental fitness is really required to play League, all the constant little things would get to you.

Support... why do I play support. Maybe because I care for the team even when they start to blabber their potty mouths at each other. I want the team to succeed, I like the feeling of helping out even when it feels like I'm in the back of the stage.

25 Comments

Corvin07163/27/2019, 9:24:41 AM6 votes

I do not get it why people tend to behave like addicts. You are not forced to play I guess. When you feel frustrated do not start an other game! Playing while frustrated to get even more frustrated is just stupid. Games are for fun. If you feel the temptation to play then play, when you feel frustrated then do not play. It is that simple. There is more option than "keep playing no matter what" or "delete the game".

epic style bro3/27/2019, 4:48:09 AM5 votes

League is designed to piss people off imo

WarmAndCrispy3/27/2019, 1:12:46 PM2 votes

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fatherdarius3/27/2019, 8:16:40 AM2 votes

Ranked League is going to be a witness, to ultimate test of cerebral fitness....

At least you get your kicks above the waistline, baby.

FF or QQ3/27/2019, 9:12:48 PM1 votes

I try not to judge since I used to tell people struggling with depression to just not think about the shit making you said but then I went through it myself and realized it was out of my control. Was hard to deal with that, everythings sunshine and rainbows now but I take it seriously when someone says theyre stressed now. It's easy to say "get off your ass and fix yourself" but we're all living different lives from different perspectives. League to me, was never that stressful. I always saw a lose streak as me getting tilted causing me to play below my divisions level. With a combination of bad coin tosses. Taking a long break from the game degrades your skill too, not to mention the rapid fire patches theyre cranking out. The truth probably is that leagues lived out its life cycle. The only thing keeping people playing is the addictive properties and peoples nostalgia of what once was. Lets all get into smite guys. Way less toxic.

Over side man3/28/2019, 2:35:23 AM1 votes

I kind realized something. League of Legends kinda reveals 4 main personalities.

  1. Chill - Someone who just enjoys the game, even when losing, because it’s a game to them.
  2. Optimistic (Me) - Hopes for the best, tries to keep the best attitude. When s**t really hits the fan the person pretends it’s all good... in till we snap. Either Tilt is slowly building up or even just suddenly exploding in frustration.
  3. Try Hard - Tries the hardest they can, hell they would pop a blood vessel to do so. They also tend to be toxic.
  4. Giver Upper - Just gives up, throws. They don’t even enjoy League that much, mostly ends up trolling the team. Or just doing dumb stuff.

I think what makes people this way is because of a behavioral chain reaction.

Team does bad, 3 yells at team, 2 stays silent, 4 is in top lane doing dance emotes, 1 is just face palming. 3 continues, 2 snaps and explodes on 3, enemy top lane joins dance with 4 and 1 just leaves.

LP reduced to zero, the tilt happens, chain reaction.

Böulder3/28/2019, 12:25:07 PM1 votes

Personally I do not believe in that much mental strength is involved. The only way that this game could cause you to tilt is that you are taking it way to seriously. Used to play seriously a while back but even then I never tilted after losing because I knew in the long run I would still gain more lp then I lost. Also treat it like a game as you clearly are getting frustrated over things that are a common occurrence. I have lost more then 6 in a row. In fact my friend lost 32 games in a row and didnt tilt hardly at all. he just kept on grinding. If things like this tilt you I would recommend never playing ranked on any video game that offers such a game mode.

Don Pasquale3/28/2019, 5:20:56 PM1 votes

It's not frustrating at all if you a) mute all and b) only play when you're feeling great and really want to play (and have plenty of time to play. Forcing games into a small window of time will only lead to a stressful situation). Also, capping out at 3 games a day max has worked very well for me. Others might be able to perform their best beyond that, but I personally find I do much better overall if I play no more than 3 games a day. If you get stuck in a loop of playing several games a day, everyday, your frustration at any small thing will eventually build up to unhealthy stress levels and poor performance. It's a game meant for enjoyment. If you treat it that way, you won't be stressed.

JoJo Guy3/27/2019, 8:26:15 PM1 votes

I understand where you're coming from. By no means do i keep playing when i notice I'm not enjoying a game. So recently i went on a ranked losing spree for 9 games.

I understand the gradual struggle about first feeling like you're the problem, then starting not to overlook the mistakes of others anymore and when you do comment on others mistakes and give them constructive feedback and tell them in a nice way how you AS A TEAM can win a game that looks lost and people snap?

Sometimes even breaks dont help /shrugs

Hyoga Kitsune3/27/2019, 6:20:02 AM1 votes

https://boards.na.leagueoflegends.com/en/c/player-behavior-moderation/RAnpUVaG-nani-its-over-300?show=flat

Just gonna post this here just encase you are wondering how to enjoy league to some extent Long story short I have a restraining order on leagues ranked system it must stay 3 full queue lengths away from me at all times and I have limited the amount of time I spend on this game it helps a lot. Try and find one champion that you really like and play to have fun try not to care to much about every death or lost tower we play for enjoyment not to torture our selves... I've had about the same experience with Dota 2's community who flame me half the time for playing the micro management mini game that is Enigma and there really isn't anything fun for me in Dota so my philosophy of play to have fun didn't work out too well there.

[slayer-jinx-catface]
Hope the post helps you figure out how to avoid the toxic side of this game a bit more.

Upgrades3/27/2019, 8:08:17 AM1 votes

I play support and I'm having amazing success i'd say

IamLordStark3/27/2019, 8:54:14 PM1 votes

Start playing Pyke or the carry supports. League actually promotes that style of play now so I'd say buy in. I don't play support anymore I mainly jungle, but if I did thats who I'd be playing.

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