I acted like a jerk and now I am at a loss as to what to do.

Darkmind1212·3/3/2016, 8:38:00 PM·1 votes·1,074 views

So yeah not gonna front I acted like a complete and utter shit head just a moment ago. Not even gonna blame it on the person instigating the whole thing. I should have muted him but didn't. I should have ignored the insults but didn't. I should have stopped before I starting saying "I hope you die in a car crash" but yet again still didn't. And now i am starting to worry just what the hell does this game do to me? I was just calm and happy at first but the next thing I knew I was a complete and utter mess. Though it was my fault for acting the way I did I think what drove me over the edge was the moment I had about nine people gang up on me after I showed the slightest hint of spite. To sum it up I have never been this toxic in my life and it sickens me to know I acted this way. But Jesus what am I to do? There is just some part of my brain just snaps every time I come across people acting like jerks and thinking they have done nothing wrong and I loose all control as a result. Seeing bullying toward others or even myself seems to trigger this was well. Not to mention just bold face lying. Now this isn't to me blaming the issues as much as it is me blaming myself to the inability to handle them. Maybe since these are prevalent in league to a such a common degree that the prevalencey itself just slowly eats away at me as I start to loose control of myself. Gonna try and make a poll for to see what others think as I am having trouble thinking this through at the moment without outside help.

6 Comments

Nahui3/3/2016, 8:45:07 PM2 votes

Mute people. If you need to, just mute the whole game at the beginning of every round. There's no reason to really type to anyone. Pings are enough to have a successful game. If not, then mute people as soon as you see a negative thing come from them before it escalates into reaction provoking magnitude.

Don't be afraid to mute. Don't think it will cause you to lose. Raging will do far worse than muting ever would.

ModWulf Helhammer3/3/2016, 8:52:15 PM1 votes

I would advice actually doing both of those poll options. Take a short break, maybe a few weeks at most, and the next time you come in to play, keep your calm. Mute people if you absolutely have to. If there ever a situation where someone acts completely stupid and you want to say something to them, say it to the air around you, it's actually kinda helpful.

Hopes this helps man!

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ThePartyLeader3/3/2016, 8:58:01 PM1 votes

Self control is a important part of growing up and how you train yourself to react to stressful situations is normally a sign of emotional health.

Do what you must but I don't believe a break will solve anything it will just put it on a shelf so that it comes up at a later time.

Use self reflection post games, use stress relievers in game, try to find out your triggers, and try to push yourself to grow into a better person.

There's no key way to solve it, each person is different. Sometimes something as simple as a foam pad under your desk to press your feet into will be just enough to keep you from raging, slamming keyboards, or more. As a added Benefit you are also training your mind to better handle other situations.

FurretHasAGlock3/3/2016, 8:58:45 PM1 votes

Here is just a thing to think about. -Playing with friends on skype allows you to vent anger through talking, and not in chat, preventing bans. -Disabling /all chat lowers the amount of people you have to worry about -Muting everybody works sometimes -Finally, its just a game, if you make a mistake, brush it off and laugh about it.[slayer-pantheon-thumbs]

John Viande3/3/2016, 9:06:36 PM1 votes

I advice you to both take a break and to mute everybody at the beginning of each match for the next 10 games.

Eks Oh Deer3/3/2016, 9:56:16 PM1 votes

alternatively you could try submitting a ticket to give you a(n) [insert number of games] game chat restriction