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2 years post ban

shyv·11/25/2017, 6:22:42 AM·10 votes·1,337 views

i don't want to write something long and cheesy. and this isn't a ban appeal

but i found a post from 2 years ago tonight, with a screencap of the message i was sent when i was banned for 2 weeks, along with a caption of me obviously not taking it seriously at all

riot, don't you know i'll just pretend to be reformed and go back to being toxic once im not on your radar? don't you know i have alts? do you really think you can make me change as a person?

but the truth is, even if i didn't make any meaningful efforts towards changing, i think i subconsciously have been changing my attitude in ALL online games since i got banned - at first, obviously, it was just out of fear of losing my league account i've had since like season 2.

but gradually it turned into not wanting to be the kind of person that is surrounded by negativity, and realizing that i have a lot of problems in my own life that need to be addressed - taking my rage out on someone online isn't an effective or healthy way of coping with mental illness, i was just an asshole.

even though i probably still get pissed sometimes, and everyone has bad days, i like to think that my overall behavior has improved a lot. i was toxic as hell back then, i was the person that you'd dread getting on your team. i'd spend more time trying to insult everyone else than playing the game. i'm not perfect, but the frequency and intensity of me getting pissed off is much, much lower.

so... thanks? i guess? it seems weird but im actually glad that i was forced to evaluate my behavior, that message about me being "one of 0.2% league players toxic enough to be suspended" sort of made me think about things. i honestly always assumed the entire league community was exactly like me. i've been playing less in the last year or so (unrelated reasons), but since getting banned i haven't had so much as a chat restriction. there was a time when my chat restriction was 200 games or something... it was just permanently on. i was a dick.

13 Comments

Zombie Gerbil11/25/2017, 7:05:37 AM3 votes

This is a good example what toxic players should take notice of. Because much like you, we all could learn from our mistakes and learn to improve it. Not blame Riot for taking away their account because they don't have the access to the internet invulnerability of suffering no consequences.

With that said, I am glad to see a good change, even if its one player, that's one player in my region that's here's to play the game for what it is. Good for you, man!

Lucasman11/25/2017, 6:24:46 AM3 votes

I bet you cant stop feeding also

themachamp11/25/2017, 7:07:47 AM3 votes

Now if only Riot would recognize reform and give players a chance to get their accounts back.

Te4 Kettle11/25/2017, 2:48:50 PM2 votes

I really like this post. They're are so many posts complaining about their bans, be it 14 days or a perma ban and that they didn't deserve it, and here you are thanking Riot for doing their job and how it helped you in the long run. Thank you for posting this, you might actually set an example for af ew people on the PB board, and Good job :D

General Esdeath 11/25/2017, 6:44:13 AM2 votes

Glad to hear it man :)

draco777777711/25/2017, 7:02:33 AM2 votes

dude legit me, I used to be super toxic back in s3-s4 or just well back when I played everyday for 6+ hours lmao. Then I got chat restricted, I think twice. One was like I had to go without chat for a certain amount of games (I think I can't recall) the other was a week I think lol. Either way, that really put things in perspective for me. I was only toxic because like, people messed up and did stupid things and I got mad at them, or they insulted me and I got upset and insulted them back, etc. But like, I messed up too, and I did dumb things too, and the insults well, I wasn't very good at just ignoring it or yaknow taking the insult, so really I had no right to insult them for doing bad.. But I didn't want to be that toxic person, and that's not who I am as a person and I knew that. So now well I'm not. I mean I definetly get triggered after a bad teamfight or something, but I just shrug it off. And I actually don't use chat all that much anymore, and if someone is toxic or whatever, I just ignore it, and if it's bad, I mute. But I never let it tilt me and make me toxic. Not anymore. Plus the when Riot gave out free stuff and like they said "of if you've been banned or yadda yadda you won't get them" like that too also made me do my best to not be toxic/let my emotions get the better of me. So yea, thank you riot for making me less toxic. I mean part of it also might've been back then I was young, and now i'm older (NO KIDDING)

Weedbro11/25/2017, 4:24:59 PM1 votes

Okay but you're still banned. No unban 4 u.