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I deserve to be banned

BetweenSkill·11/1/2016, 9:25:41 PM·15 votes·2,241 views

I've never been banned or warned for any reason in any game, let alone League. But I'm looking at my behavior these past few weeks and I see I deserve to get banned. I can be toxic as fuck, the same toxic i hate in other players.

I'm calling them trash, putting them down, yelling at the screen and smashing my fist against my chair.

I've never done this before.

I need help. It just seems as my personal skill has slowly increased and I can see by the numbers and the results my skill and ability with this game improving, I'm getting held back. I know I know, elo hell is not real, I've even said that myself. But every time I go on a winstreak and start in promos or head into promos, I'm getting matched with consistently worse players. It feels like hell and that's when my inner rage monster comes out. This is the only place in my life I ever act like that.

Then I go on a losing streak, partially because of my statistically worse teammates and my own personal tilt. Then it "resets", matchmaking feels normal again, and I go on a winstreak.

Then it continues.

I can look at those players in my games, and see them mathematically get worse the better my winstreak gets. How is this fun or fair? It's forcing my into an artificial yo-yo effect and feels so bad because I KNOW I'm improving. I'm nowhere near good, but I'm getting so much better but my elo isn't reflecting that.

I just don't know how to act with this anymore. I've become the same exact person that I despise through this cycle and I don't know how to stop it without stopping playing this amazing game. If my behavior doesn't change, I deserve to be banned.

And if one of you Rioter's see something that deserves to be banned in my chatlogs, then please go ahead and ban me. I don't want to be that person. (this is over multiple accounts).

Thanks, A formerly nice player since season 1

31 Comments

Deep Terror Nami11/1/2016, 9:29:43 PM5 votes

If you're finding it difficult to put the game to the side, you can request your account(s) be deactivated or deleted entirely. There is a wait period (so that you have time to think it over), but all you need to do is submit a Support Ticket and follow the instructions here.

Tattersall11/2/2016, 1:19:21 AM2 votes

Geez, man. I respect you.

Risk of Fate11/1/2016, 10:08:50 PM1 votes

Take advice from me who saw the same thing and thought "ya know what, I'm going to take a step back and breathe." It's been said many a time by many a person from bronze through diamond and possibly onward: it's just a video game. There is no reason to be upset over something that is meant to entertain you first and foremost.

I'm not sure if anyone else shares the value I have in video games which is I enjoy them on a slightly higher level than others. It's not enough that a game gives me some sort of enjoyment, I'm always curious as to why and how some things were made one way rather than the other. I would love to see a full development of League from pre-alpha to release.

Learn to laugh at mistakes that you or someone else makes instead of seeing where the problem is and hang them out to dry. I want to win as much as anyone else, but there came a point where I wasn't having fun when I did because I was always assessing what went wrong where. Since I've gone on break, I've gone from being this huge pile of salt that wanted nothing more than to see that nexus blow up to now that I would hug my laner if they manage to outplay me.

I really miss the days when I would be in that match having a conversation with the enemy. It's always nice to farm and talk, sharing stories of anime and movies.

Kei14311/1/2016, 11:15:16 PM1 votes

its probably lesser about you being matched with people less skilled, but more about your enemies are stronger.

Your MMR will climb if you are on a win streak, thus your opponents will naturally have a higher MMR as well, thus in theory being stronger. Stronger opponents can capitalize on mistakes that the lower MMR people make.

But hey, I've been through that cycle before of having 10 game win streak, and then a 10 game loosing streak. I was able to climb when I was able to tweak 1 small thing in the laning phase, and I got my target goal for this season.

But now that I have gotten better at the game (because of that 1 small point), I somehow am able to see more mistakes done by the weaker players I'm playing against, and I can capitalize on it. It may not be easy for me to execute on the capitalization right now, but at least I can identify it.

Plasm Wraith11/2/2016, 12:52:12 AM1 votes

What elo are you trying to reach? I know that you know the season is ending soon. Sometimes it's best to take a break. For me, after a good couple of months of playing League, I take a 3 month break. When I come back, everything is fresh and new. Usually there's 2 new champions with one on the way, along with a rework to try.

  As for ranked play, I never really cared until now. I've gone from B4 to B1 to S1, and hit a few rough patches. Hell, I still have to get to gold. I've been demoted at times (7 losses in a row!!), but I never let it tilt me. Id just pick a champ that I'd know I'd do well with and hope for the best.

MUSHROOM MIDGET11/2/2016, 1:31:19 AM1 votes

what you are describing is just the nature of matchmaking if you are on a winning streak, your mmr increases significantly and the matchmaking system therefore expects you to be able to carry weaker players against the same type of enemies.

in a matchmaking system everyone yo-yos. everyone wins 50%. that means every winsteak Has to be answered by an equal losing streak. that is how it works.

you have to learn to be ok with losing. because in this game you are going to lose half no matter how good you are. http://na.op.gg/summoner/userName=dyrus

Plasm Wraith11/2/2016, 1:43:52 AM1 votes

summoner 13 It's great that you are taking your time to reflect on yourself. By reflecting on why you play you can find the answer.

MyLittleWindmill11/2/2016, 2:08:05 AM1 votes

Sometimes when you take the time to rage at and attack other players, you actually can contribute to a downfall of a game because you create a negative atmosphere for everyone, including yourself, and, you type more than you should be during in game in most cases.

Perhaps, the best thing to be would be trying to give advice and not flame. If you have a sucky teammate, give him advice or try to help. Don't say something like, "gg stupid, fed bot" when you never suggested at first, "hey, i'll join bot with you and we'll take them out together' or something.

I also understand, that sometimes this does not work and sometimes you have to wonder if people even read the chat or care. In those situations, it's extremely frustrating but i'd say if you gave advice/offered to help and they're still making the same mistake over and over again without explanation, raging won't change their behavior either and is most likely a waste of your time when you can at least keep trying as oppose to sitting down and typing to someone who isn't listening anyway.

PlanetWarwick11/2/2016, 3:35:39 AM1 votes

CARRY HARDER

jkjk, but honestly riot don't want nobody to move up so they use their database of BBBs to guarantee you lose

BBB=boosted bronze bonobos

Existential Bard11/2/2016, 4:27:45 AM1 votes

So for me if I'm doing solo queue in ranked, I usually try to make an effort to mute all players and just focus on my play. I also have pings muted. It definitely helps when you can work on your skill. Muted pings and players will have the added bonus of keeping you on your toes, as you have to constantly be scanning the minimal for MIAs

Fegone11/2/2016, 2:51:42 PM1 votes

Best advice is, play more games when you're super tilted. Your adrenaline level is high, means your response time is shorter, your attention span is super mega boosted, and you can predict enemy movements better. It's instinct. In nature, when you're attacked, the same thing happens when your Adrenaline level rises. Trust me. Shaco Shaco Shaco Shaco Shaco

darkdreamerx11/3/2016, 2:24:32 AM1 votes

Only people that deserve to be banned are people who make death threats, and abuse towards sexuality, race, etc.

Riot is alienating the competitive community by having a gratuitous banning system that makes no sense. No one gives "commendations" anymore, and if you do badly and say ANYTHING that sounds REMOTELY like criticism, expect a chat restriction.

Riot will suffocate their own game soon enough, and the posts like this will be the ones that destroy this game.

Great Muta11/3/2016, 3:31:44 PM1 votes

League creates and nurtures stressful environments. Who knew in a game where you can't control anything and can't leave without penalty that people might become toxic...

It's not you, I promise. But years of dealing with bullshit in this game eventually catches up to you and the game quite frankly expects people to have the temperment of Barney the Dinosaur to not get banned.

OnlyYouCanHearMe11/1/2016, 9:53:05 PM1 votes

It sounds as if you've been putting some real effort into improving your performance, which is commendable. And the more a person invests into something, the more likely they are to become upset if it goes badly. This is perfectly normal. Where it becomes a problem, is when it makes you lash out. But you're already so much ahead of the game because you realize that it's becoming a problem. You know you're getting angry and frustrated with your teammates, and you seem like you don't want to be the toxic person.

So you're in the unique position of knowing what's going on BEFORE Riot comes along with a punishment. And it's now up to you to decide how you want to handle it. Now, I don't know you personally, but given how well you write, how much you seem to have thought about this and all the reasons around it, and how much you say you've been improving, I suspect you are both smart enough and strong enough to be able to realize when your temper is starting to flare up and disciplined enough to force yourself to take a few seconds to take a deep breath. Backspace whatever it was you were about to type to the feeder in the other lane, block the 5 doran's blade soraka jungle so you never have to play with them again, /mute all if you feel like you are about to get into a fight, and just focus on what you can do to keep making your personal game play better.

I can't remember who it was, I think it might have been Gbay99, who was talking about elo hell in a video a while back. He had a good point, in that it may not exist as the place of excuses that most people use it for, but that doesn't mean that a form of it doesn't exist. He said elo hell was any level you played at where you were visibly higher skilled than the other players on your team, but not so much higher skilled as to be able to carry them higher.