My latest suspension and my confusion on why I should even bother to be nicer
So, had my issues with toxicity last season. Asked riot if they could chat restrict me, they refused and there's no way to disable chat, because despite being the 5% of most toxic players in the game, it's still important that I have chat for some reason. I'm so toxic that I need to be able to chat. Go figure.
This season comes, I use DQ only and beat restriction. As usual, through blind pick games, I get in trouble again after a night of 3 troll supports in a row in blind pick. Took my 5-10 chat restriction as usual then I beat it. Again, more trolls. No loot even after restriction is completed because it is important to punish people post-humourously. A 25 game restriction. I beat it in 3 days, but the loot restriction goes on and on endlessly. I actually tried hard to be really nice, but people would do stuff that would cost me games and I let people have it.
Again, I have 5-10 games of being pretty decent by my standards. Could have been nicer sure, but I think I did okay for my standards.
Today, I had a really bad game. 0-6. We had a Sivir/Thresh combo that was so cancer. I'd go for one, the other would heal and they'd just keep repeating it. After 0-5, enemy Zed MIA's and nails me with no call made. I ask why no call was made. I just say fuck it, I'm done. I've lost and I'm just getting mad. Yasuo then of course gets on me, saying "I'm watching your lane, you suck". I ask him why he's watching me instead of playing and there's no answer. The whole team joins in to rip me apart and I just start farming until I die again and again.
At this point: The team won't quit, so the game can't end.
I'm already guaranteed at least 2 reports.
I don't want to play. 2 people on the team are pandering for reports, so why would I want to help them? The other team joins in on it as well, so I have at least 4 people abusing me.
I can't leave or I get leaverbustered.
If I feed, which I ended up doing, I'd get reported for feeding.
If I play, I help the people who are trying to get me suspended.
Why would I want to play?
The game ends, I say hey, time to move on, and I get suspended in champ select for the next game. I then immediately log into my other account and can play and still get loot. My chat log for the suspension only contains chat from this game, no others.
So my account suspension ends in 2 weeks. Here is the situation. I have 2 other accounts. I've hit my ranked goal. I have no chance of getting loot this season. I am uncomfortable with the current meta and the champ I really like, Shyvanna, is an absolute mess. In fact, it depresses me that she isn't as good anymore.
Why should I bother being nicer? One bad game means no loot. Ending restrictions still means no loot. I don't think the game is fun and even though I hit my goal ranked wise, I'm really not very good at the game. I don't think I can get a border at this point, which is all I really wanted. There is no reason for me to be nicer. One game is all it takes and anytime I've ever said or did something nice for someone, I've immediately regretted it.
And to anyone who says , "tot getting loot isn't a punishment it's just not getting a reward" - To me it is. I did my time and then I had to do more time.