I need help. (Toxic)
I am very toxic. I had 3 accounts perma-banned because I always have to say something to the enemy team. Muting doesn't work, because after I see them taunt BM or flash mastery 6 times in my face while im dead, I grit my teeth and start typing. This has got me into alot of trouble with past accounts and even this account which has only had one suspension. How I see it from my point of view, is that its a competitive game and I should be allowed to shit-talk the enemy team because the game is about killing the enemies, not making friends with them. But, I have also realized this is my downfall. I will say things like kys, call people bitches and tell them to fuck off when they constantly have their jungler camp my lane. (I am an adc main) It just really ticks me off when that happens and I can't control what I say or do half the time because I am consumed with blind rage. I want to be a better person, but it's hard when you have people spam mastery and taunts in lane before you say ANYTHING in chat. It really affects my gameplay from how hard I tilt and I don't want this to happen anymore. What can I do to improve my behavior?