This is the only Game that makes me Reallife Flame, and its getting to me

Don´t get me wrong, im not flaming in Chat or with Pings. Not at all.

But this is the only Game that manages to get me to scream "Cancer Champ", "WTF is this Shit" etc. This does never happen to me in ANY other Game. It is getting to the Point where i hate myself for saying this Curses, want to shut myself up because i cant bear to hear myself anymore, but at the same time I want to curse even louder. Like a fucking Psycho.

Its even worse for me since im usually a collected, quiet and thinkful Person (might be my Autism, but I still am). I used to think this is a good way to vent Frustration, but I can feel myself rendering this Behavior as "normal" and slowly adapt it to other areas in Life. And i hate myself for that.

I honestly dont know what to do with my own hatret for this Atm, since i really love LoL, its Universe, The Champions and the Company Riot, but at the same time i can really feel it changing me slowly into a extreme rude, hateful Individual when i have played longer than 2 Games.

Is there anything i can do against my inner Wrath besides the ultimate solution to uninstall, which actually would break my Heart aswell.