I want to personally thank Deme Lovato and all of the other support team members.
** First off, I want to say very quickly that this post is not a guide on how to get un-permabanned.** Copying or mimicking any actions displayed here (or anywhere else) will not get you unbanned. Please, try and be polite and thoughtful of the support agents, don't waste anyone's time.
I definitely deserved to be banned in the first place. I was toxic, I was passive-aggressive and generally just a rude person during my time on this account. I'm not going to blame any of the issues I'm battling right now (depression, abuse, etc.) and try to use that as leverage for why I acted the way I did. I was angry, I just wanted to lash out at people, and so I did. Now, this isn't me saying I'm going to throw away the amazing chance I was given, but what I am saying is that my permaban was warranted and I hold no aggression towards anyone over it. I made a new account and just forgot about this one after a break from League.
Riot Support agent Deme Lovato heard me out, however, and put their faith in me by giving me a second chance. (The first and last ticket I sent were about how I was permabanned after a very long period of not being punished. I thought I was performing better, but in reality, I was performing just under the point where I would get punished.)
(Riot Deme Lovato): But, I think a key point that we want to bring attention to with these penalties is that we are responsible for our own behavior; not others. Like, it's OK to be frustrated. I mean... after all, we're all human. Still, we never want to stoop down to other players and engage with them further as that oftentimes just contributes more negativity to the game. Blaming others, calling them out on their performance/behavior, and constantly arguing isn't constructive to the situation and actually just perpetuates the negative environment that others may have set.
This is probably the point that stuck the most with me during my break from League. "After all, we're all human." is something I just didn't care about at the time. I didn't care that the insults I was spurting out would be read by other players and effect them. I just wanted to escape the frustration in my own life by being angry, but that's not the way. I had to realize that in order to allow myself to come back on this account. Words matter. If you really can't handle that, you'll end up like me. With your account permabanned and feeling nothing but the same anger you felt before.
I know I'm not a bad person for these actions. I'm not a bad person at all, actually. I just need to deal with my anger like an adult. I can do better and I will. Maybe I'll add more to this post later. But for now, I just want to say:
-Thank you to all of the Riot Support agents for taking time out of your day to deal with situations like these. I can't imagine how stressful it can be dealing with aggressive people all day as a job.
-I'm sorry to the members of the League community. I'm going to try my hardest to not stoop back to my old ways. I won't mess this chance up.
-Thank you, reader, for taking the time to read this. I hope it was worth that time or taught you a valuable lesson in some way. Good luck.
Girard
