Soooo f*cking tilted.

Fuk it, I'm making qq thread.

My season high is Silver 1, and I've been playing since ekko came out. I've almost hit 1,000 ranked games. Time and time again I get so fuking close to series, and then I just fall through the ranks. I feel cheated. I feel some word "frustrated" doesn't even come close to covering for. I have almost 1,000 ranked games and I KNOW i'm better than most I am paired with. I buy wards. I ping. I identify counters. I read guides. I watch videos. I stop playing when it's too much, and come back with a fresh mind. If I am paired with someone I know I have AT LEAST ONE OF THESE THINGS above them. I try much harder than they do. Hell, I've even been tutored by Diamond and Challenger players a couple of times. But it's just always the same; there are so many people on my team in the end that just fuk me. Without lube.

Is it like this on purpose? Is it because I have 963 ranked games alone that riot's matchmaking system ques me with "that one fiora that feeds out their [as] to the enemy"? Jungle urgot? Top vayne with no cc or alternate tank? Does this matchmaking system expect me to turn lead into gold to REACH GOLD? Is it because riot just doesn't want me to get there?

One of the biggest slaps in the face about this is that I keep getting feeders, intentional or not,** every time I'm 10 wins away from a 50% win ratio**. I watch it. I could be 90 wins and 100 losses, and then riot fuks me with feeders. 290 wins and 300 losses, insta-que with down syndrome. 410 wins and 420 losses? "Here's your monthly dose of aneurysm get the fuk back down to a lower elo." -Rito It feels like a fuking coin flip rigged by a twisted fate main himself. **My winrate is 49.34% **(last time checked.) That's a testament to how 50-50 these games feel, no matter how hard I try to improve. Except its less than 50-50. Practically A godamn coinflip deciding if I get a bad team or an endurable team, and I seem to be on the sht end of the coin.

I'm constantly the only one with a positive k/d on the team, and I keep lossing because no one can at least handle just their opposing laner, junglers aside. And it's not a matter of stealing/harvesting kills and starving my laners, being the jungle main I am. I feed my laners and think carefully about the lanes I gank, yet it feels so verted against me to snatch a first blood, dragon, first tower, and vision before I even finish my 3rd jungle clear. As if I don't act flawlessly and get EVERYTHING over the span of 40 minutes straight, we automatically lose. Seriously I don't mind if you can't carry a game, but at LEAST use the pressure I gave you to keep your goddamn cs up and not dive a damn zed as your LCS ap fuking vayne mid.

Alright, I know I'm exaggerating with that last part, but it's pretty damn close to what I'm getting at. Just play the goddamn meta in ranked. And I'm not lossing because I'm negative. You're making me lose because your k/d is negative. Stahp.

Just, fuk. I try so hard when I play. I thought I would have earned it by now, and I have no idea how the people around me got this far playing how they do now. Do I really have to be a platinum player to make it to gold? It's just, so frustrating, all the time.

Now have it me you plebs.