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AdmiralRodcocker·1/7/2015, 12:12:59 AM·1 votes·1,019 views

im 19 years old and i cant really stand my living situation. my dad drinks too much and my mom just cant seem to do anything but yell. she says we dont listen but i try. i really try. i hate it here. my friends tell me it sucks but i really dont know what to do. all i ever want to do is cry. on top of all this im only living at home because i cant afford to go back to school. i owe over 10 thousand dollars to my school. and im not allowe dback until its paid off. thats because the loan i applied for after high school got rejected and nobody ever said anything to us about it. i really dont know what to do. i can stand up for myself or my dad to my mom. hes depressed so he drinks and ive tried to say things to him to get him to stop and because of everything we are in a lot of debt. she cant seem to do anything but make the whole situation revolve around her without any idea how it makes either of us feel. im just so stressed out all of the time. most times when im driving to work my ssecond job, i consider just throwing the wheel to the side and letting fate decide. but im too scared for that. about 8 months ago i found out that my girlfriend of 4 years was cheating on me. i drove back home over 100 miles from sachool so i could go to her senior prom. she was acting strange and when i asked her she kept insisting on waiting until later to discuss it. i found dirty pictures being sent to another guy. i had plans to propose to her after she graduated. im just so out of my mind. please just somebody tell me where to start. the only things i have in my life are that i play league of legends, im a college level bowler, (reason i went to the school i did) and i know produce. other than that idk what ove got. i just feel like nobody really gives a shit about me

6 Comments

Seth Lightheart1/7/2015, 12:17:49 AM1 votes

This is what you need to do: Make a list, stuff you can do and stuff you can't.

The stuff you can do, FREAKING DO! Don't panic and think you can't, do it in order of greatest to least.

The stuff you can't just let go.

Trust me, growing up I had it worse. I survived, so will you, if you want to. At the end of the day you can choose to the swamp of sorrows ear you up or walk though it and let the scars heal.

Jamaree1/7/2015, 12:18:35 AM1 votes

I can't tell if you are trolling or not, gl with life if you aren't.

Siyther1/7/2015, 12:31:29 AM1 votes

join the military they will get u away and give u everything u need. Good luck bro

Trinityunicorn1/7/2015, 1:16:41 AM1 votes

Try finding an aa group for families of alcoholics. There is surely one in your area, if you live in a big area there may be one for people your age. You will find supportive people, you will start to learn about some of the effects that living with alcoholics has, you will start to see the games that go on, you will start to see how it affects your thinking. You will also learn that there are others like you dealing with and feeling the same things, some with much more experience having already dealt with similar mechanics. Good Luck and please promise YOURSELF that you won't hurt yourself, and that you will do what you can to get yourself help instead. If you can do this with honesty, it will go a long way towards calming yourself down and staying safe. It will help you to think with more clarity and move forward in safety and with more calm.