How am i suposed to feel about this?

this happened a long while back (cant remember if it was season 4 or 5)

but i got dced roughly around 10 min cuz of some stupid internet issue at my place (the whole block was out) and after 30 minutes or so i could still reconnect to the game.

(it was ranked btw)

so im sitting there thinking to myself wow they must really be far behind i felt terrible about it too i know how it feels when someone disconnects and you lose 4v5 in ranked all that small progress you made down the drain. so im having a rollercoaster of feels preparing myself for a myriad of responses from my team raging at me. so i finally get back into the game my apology ready and see my team is.... wining.

fiddle jungle had totally snowballed midlane was sortof ok with like 15/10/20 adc was doing fine and i was like holy shit guys awesome job!!!

i TP in with full tank items and push as hard as i can and 5 minutes later we win... well my team did and i got literal free ranked win for doing nothing but dc....

my team is super pissed. not only were they carrying me on my back i also got the benefits from them doing so and to be honest i felt so much guilt but at the same time it got me into my promo's for silver 5 to 4 (which i won) thanks nameless people that although you were salty as fuk ( and i compeletely agreed with their sentiment)

your salt was much apreciated