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What do I do? I feel literally trapped.

Terminus Edge·11/4/2016, 7:19:24 AM·1 votes·926 views

I've gotten two accounts banned now, both for the exact same reason.

I get increasingly frustrated that I do badly against players at my own low elo, while my friends are all in plat/diamond. I feel like I'm not good enough because I can't play on their level.
This keeps me near permanently tilted, which makes me rage at everyone for no reason. I can only contain my anger at myself so much before it boils over.
Got my old account banned because of this, took a few months off, tried again, now this one's banned too for the exact same thing.

Now I just feel stuck. I don't want to just quit because then I'm admitting that I'm not good enough, but if I keep going, I have to level an account yet again and endure the awful experience that is modern pre-30 League, and then probably get stomped when I do hit 30 due to not having decent runes.

I don't want to quit and admit failure. I've spent my entire life falling short, failing, and being beneath everyone else. I need to catch up to my friends, I don't want to be left behind again. I can't catch up to them if I'm stuck grinding thousands upon thousands of IP to rebuild my champ pool and runes, and that's if I even make it to 30 again and not get myself tilt-banned a third time from being destroyed by smurfs.

I can't even just forget about it and go hang out with my IRL friends, because I don't have any and I have no way to make any. I can't drive and have no access to any reliable transportation. I'm stuck with my online friends, and guess what, all of them play League. So unless I just sever ties with all of them, I'm going to be constantly reminded of this game.

7 Comments

Otter Fire11/4/2016, 12:43:10 PM2 votes

Try to find people you play with in you games who you find appealing to play with and send friend requests. Play with them build up friendships with them and try to climb with them. Another alternative is to just play with your plat/diamond friends and learn what they do. Ask why they do what they do and ask what you should improve on. I have a friend who is plat 2, but I still play with him, I ask questions and have conversations with him. Slowly but surely I know that I will someday reach his level of skill. Don't tilt so hard, understand that there are people who are better than you. If you do encounter a smurf, try to observe what they do, whether superior mechanics, positioning, or farming technique. Learn it, use it to improve your game play. Watch the LCS, pay attention to what the players do in game listen to what the announcers are saying. You just have to keep trying, don't tilt because that just shows you are not a good sport or that you are not in the best of conditions to play.

If you tilt so much then take a break once in a while, absorb what had happened in the games you just played. Try to play something else when you are taking a break from league. Also, don't grind for IP or EXP, You lose sight of trying to learn how to play the game. Use free champion rotation to learn new champions and see if you can find a particular champion within reason to play. I know I'm a bronze 2, but you need to take it easy when you are playing. Tilting won't help you to progress, it will only further the gap between you and your plat/diamond friends.

Terminus Edge11/4/2016, 9:33:21 PM1 votes

I can't do it. I can't grind a third account. I hate this game pre-30, when you're deliberately gimped in several different ways and left at the mercy of smurfs.

Is this nightmare over yet? Can I just wake up and resume playing this game as normal? I want to play League. I don't want to grind out levels, champions, runes, and rune pages again. I don't like any of the cheap champions, and the tier 2 runes are weak and inefficient compared to the ones I already had twice before.

I didn't sleep at all last night, and I've been sitting here all day just staring at my monitor. I don't want to be stuck in everyone's shadow. I want to get better, I need to have my champs and runes so I can improve properly.

I can't even just quit this game, not without unfriending everyone I know just to not be tempted to play it again.

I can't take this. There's no answer. No solution that won't completely destroy my sanity to try.

Terminus Edge11/5/2016, 12:46:22 AM1 votes

It'd be fine if I could just get to the point where the game's fun again.

I really don't enjoy having nothing I like playing and being stuck with blind pick, though. None of the champions I like using are on the lower end of the IP spectrum besides Sion, and even then I'm not good enough as him to do anything if an enemy carry gets fed (and with the density of smurfs in low levels these days, it's bound to happen more than once).

Even if I did acquire a bunch of champions and unlock draft, it's probably borderline unplayable at low levels because how many people actually queue for support at low level? I assume it's mostly smurfs all trying to queue mid and hard-carry.

Even with the reduced XP to level, level 30 is still a decent grind. Never mind that awkward point in the mid-teens where you might get matched against people with keystones while you don't have them yet. I had the pleasure of experiencing that once leveling this account a few months back, as an ADC + my support with no keystones on either of us against Fervor Jinx and Thunderlord's support Lux.

I can't even buy any IP/XP boosts, either. I really don't want to put any money on here because this account still has ~3500 RP on it that I can now never do anything with...