Getting so tired...

I won't lie. I'm a low Gold, medium Silver player at best. And while I understand ranked games will be lost, and others will be won, there's one thing that makes me debate uninstalling this game every time I start it up. That one thing?

The community in ranked.

As it stands, I'm Bronze IV. I've been there all year, because every time I go to play a few rounds of ranked, I get the same thing spat at me. "Omg you're so garbage, uninstall. Such a bad player. You're why I'm in ELO hell, lol."

I do my best, I try my hardest. I build to counter, I pick to counter, I even try listening to tips from people who sound like they know their stuff. But every game, -I- am the odd one out. I'm the one that can't play, I'm the one that's feeding. At this point, I'm starting to believe them. I'm bad, I need to uninstall, the game doesn't need me. Last season, I was SO CLOSE to getting out of Bronze. Finally, Bronze I, promo series. But every time, I'd fail 3/5 promo games, and I'd get shoved back down another 10-15 LP. Then the reset on ranked happened this year, and I got put down in Bronze IV despite ACTUALLY DOING BETTER in placements than I had in S4.

All my crying and whining aside, is it just a clandestine, heavy-handed hint that I shouldn't play League anymore? Does Riot hate me? Do the gods of gaming? Or am I just yet another victim of constant verbal abuse in ranked, and taking it too much to heart? I really do like League, I'd like to keep playing. But between getting put down every game I play, being forced to eternally envy my friends who are in gold and above, and the myriad of other issues this game has... (Don't get me started on runes and their costs...) I'm just not sure I can anymore.