It's disheartening to know so *relatively* few use the boards and follow various aspects of League

It's painfully obvious that only the people who are the most invested in the game and care enough to keep themselves updated on all the inner workings of the game visit the boards, let alone know they exist.

I believe this is at least partially why tilt is so easy to succumb to, being that when one is part of these boards and are constantly bearing witness to people on their team that don't know so many things like tank-assassin builds so they just go yolo glass cannon and die repeatedly. They miss a disgusting amount of CS because they don't understand things like melee minion is two turret hits and an auto (on average for your basic top-laner or ADC, anyway). "Play safe" means demanding jungler to gank at level 3 when laner has no mana and jungler is at 50% or lower health. Jungler gets kill gold on gank but then starves laners by denying them any CS, either blasting them down for themselves or pushing so much that they die to your own minions, instead, for wasted gold potential. Rotating, jungle buff sharing, getting people to actually COME to help with dragon while enemies are down long enough to go for it instead of grabbing two more CS and recalling back to base, etc. It's a colossal mess.

I'm sure there's a thousand more examples that scream 'this person has no clue how to play' but hopefully you get the picture.

When someone is, by self-admission, not great but at least acknowledges they aren't TERRIBLE, trying to climb but subject to a coin flip of people who can either rofl-stomp and who cannot, it hits a lot harder than should be expected, considering how many people claim they can get out no problem or know they can rely on friends to group queue for more consistency.

I have a friends list, sure, but no one I can actually depend on to queue at the same time as me, that or they are too high to do ranked with me. I'm not the worst of the worst. There are so many times I honestly question why I even bother doing ranked, trying to fight RNG on what kind of people I'm grouped with. If I go on a winning spree, the subsequent losing sprees hurt my morale that much harder.

I haven't played in a while but after I make this post, I'm going to try a game or two and see if maybe my somewhat decent break will have any influence but I seriously doubt it.

I always criticize myself. I know I make mistakes and I honestly try to correct them wherever possible. But given the disparity of who in the game actually does the same makes me feel as though it's just never enough to only focus on my own personal ability.

Does this seem normal to anyone or is there an underlying truth as to what the reality of the lowest elo can project onto people?

Genuine curiousity as I find it very hard to believe that it is up to me and me alone to hard-carry each and every game when my perspective puts that into the 'lol....NOPE, are you joking?' pile of disbelief.

Again, I know I'm not the greatest and never will be. However, I surely cannot be the worst of the worst but given how this is a team-based game, yet must abide by a personal score...too many people tend to ignore all the little intracacies that lead to very biased results.

Maybe I'm just too tired and rambling but I hope this makes some margin of sense.