First lost love that returns a story *looking for opinion*

Back in 2009 while playing an mmo I met this girl you seei wae 22 and she was 19 we fell for eachother so hard and she was my first true love and last have never gottennclose to that feeling again kicker is we where. Stressing outvconstantly about the long distance i was barely getting by she just started her career at a finance firm we went our seperate ways while basicly adoring each other fast forward 3 months i msg her she has a new guy i freak out we go into it like you can my body be cold and burries for a min here? She responds i thought youd be happy for me? I closed the coversatiin she blocks me fast forward 6 years she msges out of the blue hi how aee you do you think we can talk? I kid you not bois i was so happy so frickinf happy she moved continents away to live with her new bf you know that one like sure yiu know w.e apperntly she datedbhim online a year and moved in with him living at his parents i have to adnit myvresentment was growing but w.e after 5 years of living togeth she leaves him here she is the woman of my dreams backbin my arms again great right? Wrooooong..... Shes telling me all about them having sex he taking her v away how she wished it was me......well fuck me right? I would have loved to do that and i know for a fact ivwouldnt have pushed her away likebhe did she took carw of a kid letting himbhave the best of hwr years i didnt want to know all ofvthis i would have been happier not knowing not asking i wouldnt feel this tormwnted i adore rhis girl but i cant look past all thats been said and done she loves me and says she"d do whatever it takes this time but ut feels too late itvfeels like she should have made it work qith that kid it feels like she juat ranaway to me like id take her back no matter what i feel usedvi feel love and resentment but shes a huge part of my life again im so lost i have told her how i feel she just tells me ill take that pain away shes trying but i can still see his smug face taking something away from a girl who wanted to only give herself to the one shed spend the rest of her life with gentlemen she is truely special and no one shes met so far was worthy not even me because here i am baring my soul to some boosted animal looking for adviceb lord have mercy on me idk what to do break her or break me