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Thank you Riot.

FaiZhang·4/23/2015, 4:09:18 PM·104 votes·12,996 views
 Okay, I would not normally open a new thread just to do something like this... but I really want to. I know that nobody will ever really see this, but let me just start out from the beginning. I was never really socially acceptable and thus had very few friends. During my 6th grade year i sat in the corner of the playground daily because nobody wanted to play with me. If something was finally going right at school it was a disaster at home. My dad... has basically caused me to be a shell of what I once was. I mean, who the hell holds a gun to his wife in front of his children? I painfully forced myself through all of that and the rest of middle school.
 Highschool hit and I decided to start doing online school. I did this just in time for my older brother (whom I hadn't seen in many years) to come stay with us. He stayed for over half a year, and it was the best time of my life. He may have been a bit tempermental, but he was fun for a change. One day I saw him playing League of Legends on his laptop and I thought to myself, "Hey that game looks really fun. Maybe if I can get good at it we could play together." And so he became my mentor. 
 I began by maining support to his adc. I progressed greatly, and rightfully so. I finally had something that I was good at. People wanted to talk to me without even knowing my first name. I felt... accepted for the first time in my life. Hitting level thirty felt like the climax of a roller coaster. I did ranked and got placed in Silver III. Too bad it was just in time for Season 5 to start and am now in Bronze IV. But you know what? I don't care about my elo. 
 League has brought me more joy than anything in my entire life. I'm a Bronze IV noob and I like it. Even the trolls and afk's from time to time can't get at me. This is my world and I progress as long as I try harder. There isn't anyone to stop me. So... thank you Riot. Thank you for giving me a home where I finally feel welcome. v(=∩_∩=)ﾌ

Edit: I didn't expect this much love from the community and waking up to see all of this made this the best Friday in a long time. I'm actually tearing up a bit.

105 Comments

Death by Kayn4/23/2015, 5:23:02 PM26 votes

We're all nubs together <3

RiotKindlejack4/24/2015, 6:25:17 AM24 votes

I know it sounds corny but you got it, my item 3070 now has one stack.

Thanks so much for sharing, playing, and making it that much easier to bring my A game to work tomorrow.

Aelvr4/24/2015, 11:09:49 AM6 votes

...This is going to be very difficult for me, so bear with me.

You and me seem to have very similar League of Legends testimonials. We both grew up extremely depressed with abysmal self-esteem, all the way up until high school, then someone close to us taught us LoL, and we both used it as an escape. Your description of why you continue to be passionate about LoL is almost word-for-word the reason that I would give for my love of LoL.

But proceed with utmost caution. Do not let League of Legends shape how you view yourself. Avoid the trap of believing that LoL is the only place where you are accepted and can succeed in. The feelings of community, acceptance, purpose, &c. that seem to come from this brilliant game are a lie that you should fight. If you decide to let LoL be the source of your happiness, you will eventually be disappointed, because LoL is no substitute for reality. It is a game; nothing more, and nothing less. I cannot stress this enough, never let LoL become your salvation from depression, because it cannot save you. Your depression will follow you ignored for as long as you try to use LoL as a treatment.

If you can get to Silver III, then you have traits that are highly desired by prospective employees IRL. You know how to work with teammates who only care about themselves, you are patient, you are diligent. So know this and, for your own sake, apply these skills and make a real life for yourself in which LoL is only a part. Somewhere, there are real-life people who not only will accept you, but want to be close to you, for who you actually are, not the mask we all assume when we log in to the client. Make sure you spend time being that real person before it is too late.

I say these things because I care; please, please, even though it will seem difficult at first, endure with the trials of reality. Don't run away from your depression, face it and quell it. Make that corruption not a part of you anymore. Don't need LoL, because it is a trap.

Please, I'm begging you, don't do this to yourself. You are too important to throw yourself away on LoL.

ZeeDrakon4/23/2015, 4:38:03 PM5 votes

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My dad... has basically caused me to be a shell of what I once was. I mean, who the hell holds a gun to his wife in front of your children?

Just 'murica things... :(

The Lexer4/23/2015, 11:29:33 PM5 votes

Holy shit I'm almost crying.

U give me the feels

Edit: Dude we should hang out if you want another friend send a request

Baron Von Bangin4/24/2015, 2:10:19 AM5 votes

I would read this during a down swing.

http://intfolder.com/_ph/1/2/558386716.jpg

We lub u.

Riotmoonstones4/24/2015, 4:25:40 PM4 votes

This is such a touching story!

I absolutely love your positive outlook both in and out of game. ^-^

Tatrii4/24/2015, 9:40:20 AM3 votes

I completely understand and agree with you dude I do online school myself and league is a place to do something I enjoy with other people who enjoy it also :D. When I went to school I was basically Zed in the shadows but, now I'm Leona and want everyone too see me lol (I saw a perfect opportunity for that joke had to use it. So now I stick a item 3153 up the peoples ass who talked shit about me. :)

Shroom Junkie4/23/2015, 11:23:14 PM3 votes

I feel so sorry for you... even though there's technically nothing to be sorry about. But seriously, you know what I mean. I hate people like that. Get so drunk they lose all logic and reason, and others suffer for it; its especially bad when its your father. Lucky for me my dad stopped drinking awhile before I was born, and even then he wasn't very violent, but still. I hope you find something - and someone - in life that you really like to! Love and condolences <3

Rhinovex4/24/2015, 4:21:48 PM3 votes

That moment when there's sad music playing in the background and you begin to sweat through your eyes item 3070

Firestartertot4/24/2015, 11:53:15 AM3 votes

All good your mmr is probably higher than where you're at so you'll climb quickly. If not, we can be bronze buddies xD

CloudGazer274/24/2015, 6:34:21 AM3 votes

Anivia Stay cool yo

Magnathar4/24/2015, 7:44:05 PM2 votes

Hey there :) I'm glad LoL has given u such beautiful and constructive things! This is definitely a good opportunity to find people who to talk to and share games with. I want you to know that even though I don't know you, I wish only the best things for you and hope you have a blast making friends and having fun in the League.

Ahri

rtbf2624904/25/2015, 1:07:57 PM2 votes

Very brave of you good sir to put your feelings out there your a better man then me its tough for me to convey. Life is tough and you have to find that one thing that takes you away from all that trouble or hurt. League is my muse so to speak it has helped me through alot of family issues. The game has helped me with my career as well without it i never would have learned to make videos or broadcast it made me smile and laugh when i didnt want to. It brought me and my wife closer we went through tough times and i said hey try this game with me you adc i will supp and she hates games but here we are today making videos and laughing. And as you can see im not very good at typing or spelling but your story is something that others will see too and more people will share. Thank You for putting yourself out there so others can too. If you ever want a teammate let me know NA smeagledorf.

ShaftyMegee4/23/2015, 10:02:48 PM2 votes

Man :/. Me saying sorry doesn't cut it for the shit you have been through. But I am happy you are happy :). Keep doing what you love.

Shaabanglyy4/24/2015, 2:14:03 PM2 votes

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Okay, I would not normally open a new thread just to do something like this... but I really want to. I know that nobody will ever really see this, but let me just start out from the beginning. I was never really socially acceptable and thus had very few friends. During my 6th grade year i sat in the corner of the playground daily because nobody wanted to play with me. If something was finally going right at school it was a disaster at home. My dad... has basically caused me to be a shell of what I once was. I mean, who the hell holds a gun to his wife in front of his children? I painfully forced myself through all of that and the rest of middle school. Highschool hit and I decided to start doing online school. I did this just in time for my older brother (whom I hadn't seen in many years) to come stay with us. He stayed for over half a year, and it was the best time of my life. He may have been a bit tempermental, but he was fun for a change. One day I saw him playing League of Legends on his laptop and I thought to myself, "Hey that game looks really fun. Maybe if I can get good at it we could play together." And so he became my mentor. I began by maining support to his adc. I progressed greatly, and rightfully so. I finally had something that I was good at. People wanted to talk to me without even knowing my first name. I felt... accepted for the first time in my life. Hitting level thirty felt like the climax of a roller coaster. I did ranked and got placed in Silver III. Too bad it was just in time for Season 5 to start and am now in Bronze IV. But you know what? I don't care about my elo. League has brought me more joy than anything in my entire life. I'm a Bronze IV noob and I like it. Even the trolls and afk's from time to time can't get at me. This is my world and I progress as long as I try harder. There isn't anyone to stop me. So... thank you Riot. Thank you for giving me a home where I finally feel welcome. v(=∩_∩=)ﾌ

I can relate. Not that I went through an abusive home life. I didn't. My brother was a trouble child and required most of my parents attention and energy during his troubled older teenage years while I was 5 years younger and mostly well behaved. So naturally, while my parents were great and loved me, I was more or less left to my own devices. I had a few friends but also never really "fit in" in school, whatever that is supposed to mean.

But anyway, I discovered online gaming in the form of StarCraft and Age of Empires and other games of the time. I soon became well known and liked amongst a HUGE community of players who didn't care anything about what I looked like, where I was from, or anything other then how we played together and how I treated them.

I then got into competitive gaming and played CS:Source for a long time, and realized I wasn't cut out for the high end play and began working for Pwnage.TV and doing shoutcasts for high end competitive matches and I never felt more accepted and welcomed in my life then I did when interacting with that community.

I am happy for you that you have found your home. I am infinitely sorry for your troubled upbringing. Use it as motivation for your future. Again, I cant imagine as I really did have a loving father, and we are much closer now than we were during those years. I wont pretend to understand that point. But use it however you can and never let anyone rob you of your joy.

Friend request me if you like, Id love to see you on the Rift.

Elisai4/24/2015, 3:35:05 PM2 votes

You know. Honestly, you are like the definition of the people the internet gamers need in the community. (Not the terrible childhood thing but like just the being nice and being awesome. Kinda like the main character in an anime lol.)

Puri Puri Taric4/24/2015, 3:57:35 PM2 votes

fucked up life you got had to punch a kitten to feel manly again oh wait...

KGBcommunist4/24/2015, 5:23:07 PM2 votes

Why are all support mains no nice? Everyone time i come across one there never toxic lol. Night and day compared to a adc that flips there shit if you even steal one cs on accident. Regardless im a lvl 26 beginner but i understand the game and im pretty good at it. If you ever wanna talk in my teamspeak and mabye play a few normals let me know. Im always looking for cool league buddies.

WESTFALL4/23/2015, 11:42:50 PM1 votes

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