A really close friend of mine who was getting into League just passed away
It wasn't something that could've been easily prevented, as he was a victim of seizures. He suddenly had a terrible fate of a seizure in the middle of the night to which he "smothered himself," as his dad put it. I had known him since I was 5 years old (nearly 16 now), and he died just 2 months after his twentieth birthday. He didn't have his own computer at the time, so whenever he came over to my house I would break out my laptop and we would play League together. We hadn't hung out for about a year or so up until a month ago in early January. I think it would've hurt more if he didn't happen to ask to hang out then, being just one month prior to his death. He hadn't played much League, but he really liked how cool Kassadin looked and I can't think about that champion the same way anymore. I feel slightly emotionally attached to a champion that I don't even own just because of his enjoyment and likes. I still remember the last night I saw him, it was pouring cold rain in the pitch black night. I wonder if there was a symbol there with it being a sad night I'd look back on that will probably last with me throughout all of my life. I think the worst parts of it all was that it was sudden, he was aware of the seizure, and that he was engaged and getting married within a year if I recall correctly.
Moral of the story: Please tell the people you love that you do love them. Be realistic and realize that the people all around you could die at any moment in any day. I believed that it was all fake and that something like this would never happen to one of my friends, but it is all too real. I can't tell you how much it hurts to know that I never told him how much he meant to me and that he will never know. Please tell the people you love that you love them dearly, tell them every last thing you love about them. Make new damn words to explain to them how much you care, and show them you do. Don't just wait for a special date to tell someone your feelings. Don't wait for Valentine's day just for the sake of it being the classic day of love and appreciation. Don't do it. Tell everyone how much you care for them now, before you can't anymore.
As I wrote this I cried three times, something I hadn't done in well over a year. He meant so much to me.
Rest in peace, Nick. You will always hold a place in my heart and I'll always cherish our memories that were a part of 2/3 of my childhood. I'm speechless that this all happened.
