I feel like I'm ruining ranked for my teammates.
For those that care... I have gone from silver 1 to silver 4 in about 3-4 weeks... I mostly play Zyra and Shaco. I get ahead early game quite often, but after that I just seem to fall off, feed and effectively throw the game. I do not believe it's the teams I'm matched with. I've been consistently losing... -winning a game occasionally- but nothing like I did when I climbed from Bronze 4 to silver 1-2 before I started plummeting back down in rank... I have no idea why I'm posting this, or if I'm posting in the right place, I'm just distraught about this and feel I'm ruining games for people, I force myself to stay positive during games and always believe we can win, but at the end of the game there is always someone mocking me or telling me how shit I am and that I belong in bronze and how they are glad I'm losing rank, or letting me know that I threw 6 different times this game and due to my mistakes there is no possible way we can win and we will just lose so we should just surrender now. Idk.. Maybe I belong back in bronze, it has to be me that's losing these games, because I'm losing with consistency, even normals, I'm just not sure what I'm doing wrong... Sorry... I just needed to vent because I feel like shit and I can't sleep. Sorry to clutter the forums with more complaining (not that I use the forums enough to even know if there is a lot of complaining), that was not and is not my intentions.
TL;DR- I feel I am ruining my league of legends and my teammates league of legends experience (whether it be ranked or not) and I guess any advice would be appreciated... Not that I know what kind of advice I am looking for.... Just tired of ruining games for others...