Is Anyone Else Miserable with League?

Recently I played a few games at ranked to try and make my goal of just making it into Gold this season. Currently I'm around Silver III and was fairly high to proceeding to Silver II. I lost the first two games and I was in a pretty down mood but I still tried to keep an upper chin thinking that this last one was going to go great and I would be back on track. At first it was going great but then it started going to late game, we only had one land fully pushed to their base, the other team had a Fizz, Yi, Yasuo Sion and Vayne, and ultimately we made one bad decision, got aced and threw the entire game. After that I actually felt completely ashamed of that match. No, not even that I had died a little bit inside, like my spirit to play this game had just had a tiny portion of it ripped off and completely destroyed.

Pretty much I just don't feel any joy in playing League anymore. When I first started it was actually fun, it was the first time I'd ever been introduced to a MOBA and I got to play with my friends every now and again. But now every time I start it up or go hoping into a match I just feel miserable for continuing to play this, whether it's ranked or even just a normal game. Most of my friends have dropped this and moved on to Overwatch or even other things in their lives and I don't blame them. League just hasn't felt the same as it did when I first played it. The worst part about this is that I've really tried to quit myself but I literally can't. To describe it at best I feel like I'm in an abusive relationship with the game itself.. Every time I try to leave I feel like it calls me back saying that the next game will be good but when I do it just slaps me the face repeatedly. A better description would be that League is like a hard narcotic, every time I try to go cold turkey on it I crack up and have to come back to it.

At the same time their are just so many champions right now that are just so rage inducing for me to play against or along side with. Yasuo: infinite dashes, huge crit chance, and now recently they begin building tanky with fervor from what I can tell recently. Ezreal: can basically be played anywhere and I feel is in a huge majority of my games. Blitzcrank: that stupid pull of his. Ekko: while his tank side was nerfed its still there and in general he's just fucking annoying. Yi: I've never liked having him on my team nor playing against him just because he's Yi. Singed: Literally the only champion you can get kills just by running around and never really fighting anyone. Soraka: I mean..... it's Soraka. Fizz: same deal as Soraka, he's just Fizz. Illaoi, Irelia, Rengar, Shaco, Lee Sin, my list goes on to the point where there are only a handful of champion left for me not to hate either because I actually feel like they're fair or I literally never see anyone pick them anymore. I know already that some champion like Fizz, Rengar and many other are being updated soon but even then their are and probably will be more champions that just are constantly annoying to deal with, whether or not they may be strong or weak.

I even have a problem with some of the community. Sure I mean the community can be helpful sometimes and bring out some fantastic creations but I;m more or less taking about when you go into the game. Sure outside of it on boards and at conventions everyone is cheerful and friendly but when I get into a game I sometimes wonder if those same cheerful people turn into the uptight assholes who completely flame all game because the support accidentally took one CS from them or they keep running out in the front line even though they're the ADC, keep feeding the enemy and then blame their teammates because that's how I feel most of the game works now a days. I rarely meet any decent people in games anymore and I just never feel like people show any god damn respect at the end of matches when they say "ez".

I just feel overall that I'm part of a game that slowly but surely is becoming less of an actual game and more of a huge sport. There's nothing wrong with turning a game into a sport though. However I feel like if you just completely forget the fact that it's also suppose to be a game, it just doesn't feel like you want to play for fun anymore. That's how I feel about League at the moment. I don't feel like I'm having fun, not even in the rotating game modes. Even in those I feel frustrated with some of them, especially URF.

Overall I just don't know how to feel happy playing League again. I mean I really do like the game, for crying out loud I've nearly played it for roughly three years now. But as of this season and moment I just don't feel that love anymore. Hell, the only thing that I really do enjoy that is related to League is just coming onto the boards to look and posts or post one of my concepts or just read the stories about the world and characters that Riot posts up. Even with that though I just still feel miserable and I don't know what to do. If anyone suggests a long break, don't think that I haven't tried that already. Really I want to know if anyone has similar feelings like mine right now. I don't even care if this gets downvoted or whatever, I just needed to get this off my chest and out to hear what others have to say.