Seeking direction in....life?

Alright B O Y Z and grills, sit down and [/mute "yourself"] 'cause it's story time. I'd like to start off by saying there isn't gonna be a TL;DR for this guy, and also that it's 4:13 am here in cozy Illinois. I'm in my unlit room, supposed to be sleeping because I have an 8 am class tomorrow today. I say "unlit" because I do NOT have a backlit keyboard, and only now am I understanding why people buy AW-YE-RAVE-TIME keyboards. Also, Aphromoo's stream is currently playing on my iPhone next to me. I'm not even watching really, but his playlist right now is chill as all hell, so thanks for that man.

But I digress. I'm here on the boards because I'm at a strange stage in my life where making a decision that seems relatively big or relatively small will have a significant effect on my life regardless. The decision I'm speaking about is actually truly massive. So you can imagine what sort of effect it could garner.

Basically, I want to be a professional gamer. Specifically, I want to be a professional LoL player.

I know what you're all thinking: " rolls eyes We got another Bronzie hoping to make it big... NEXT!" Well first of all, I'd like to point out that I'm currently Gold 5 -- highest rank Gold 2 (S4). I'd also like to point out that I know

a.) that my rank is nothing to brag about, and b.) my non-Bronze rank in no way means I'm closer to making it professionally than anyone else.

We were all there once. In fact, in order to escape ELO HELL I actually made a new account and had to place it in Gold. So technically, I am indeed still just a Bronzie hoping to make it big.

Thing is, I have a nice medley of some of the things that I believe are necessary to making it as big as you could ever want. And no, I'm not talking about your donger ヽ༼ຈل͜ຈ༽ﾉ I'm talking about passion, determination, potential, and even a nice collection of role models. I honestly think that if I take the time and dedicate myself to making it to that level, I can. There are few things I have such a strong affinity for. Writing is in fact the only other passion of mine that I truly love and enjoy and plan on making a living out of (currently).

I have quite a bit on my plate at the moment -- nothing notably substantial, but enough for me personally: School, social obligations (namely, a girlfriend who HATES League), and also the fact that I'm 21 and not looking forward to sticking around in my parents' house for any longer than I need to. Last year after taking time away from school, I told my parents that I wanted to play professionally. And they agreed to support me in my decision. It ultimately got away from me though because I was dealing with a lot of personal and mental issues that I'm glad to finally be sorting through and dealing with. Depression is no joke people, and I'd like to take the time to stop and appreciate everyone trying to work through it, and even those that aren't. There's always a reason to love and smile.

Anyway... Now that I'm back on track and in school again, it's hard to imagine going back to my parents like "Hey, so this past year in school was a complete waste of my time and I wanna go back to pursuing a career in League :))) "

Just looking for some outside insight/advice. I tried my hardest to make a long story at least somewhat short, which is why I refuse to add a TL;DR here. No offence taken if you decide not to read all the way through.

You know your life is in shambles when you turn to the League community for advice Appreciate any and all honesty and feedback :D