I'll tell you my story. @Riot

-It will be a long post, i wont try to make it short or long. I'll write it as i'll remember the things.

I've been playing league of legends since August 2013. Season 3. I heard about the game, tried it out, like it and started playing it. I have been playing for 2 seasons and a half now and the more i play the higher i wanted to get.

I was never good at the game. Even though i try to get better every season, i've only reached Platinum V. I've never ended up in Bronze, i've always been silver. Last season gold. This season i made it all the way to plat.

The higher i got, the more i wanted to climb and more excited i got. But also, the harder it was. I got very salty sometimes when i lost games because winning was really hard and exhsausting.

For that reason, whenever i got a troll or an afk or somebody who afk farms jungle for the rest of the game for childish reasons, i got more salty. After a while, every time i start a game, i didnt watch my teammates as "people who want to play, climb, get good, or maybe just have fun", because of previous (and often) experiencies i watched my teammates as "potentially flamers/ragers/feeders/afk/people who made the game really hard to win".

I started to lose a lot of games when i reached plat V, i got demoted all the way down to Gold 4. Climbed back to gold 1.

After that rollercoster of climbing and falling, my mmr was terrible. Winning a game ment 14-6 points and losing a game ment -19-21 points.

You can totally understand the frustration i had to deal with when i had trolls or afk on my team. losing 21 points because some guy decided that the game was done and straight up AFK or DC. or decided that for some reason, as a support he had to take all the farm after dying 3 times.

I got my first chat restriction. I watched the things i said and i realize i had become a salty little player who said a lot of things in chat. I palyed my 10 games, realize that talking in chat is counterproductive no matter the situation. At that point i had climbed (despite winning less points than losing) all the way back to Gold 1.

In Gold 1 i couldnt get pass 60LP. every time i sweated and hardworked to get there, the matches were impossible to win. And i mean impossible for me, not a challenger guy who's smurfing there, and despite all lanes and roles do poorly, that guy can hard carry the game. No, i'm a Gold 1 player with a gold 3 MMR (i think), who cant win games after 60LP because when that happens, the enemy team crushes my team every single time. And not just 1, not 2, but all the times needed for me to get back at 0LP.

Yesterday i came home really drunk and decided to play an URF game. I chose Gangplank and of course did really bad. As i didnt stop dying, i started "having fun" in all chat. That means trashtalking. And today, i played some ranked games. It was super frustrating. SUPER frustrating. I played 1 game with amumu (ended up 9/2/15, got S rank, did the best i could) we lost because of an AFK. Next game, i thought "i did pretty well with him we almost win 4 v 5, i'll paly him again". Ended up 5/5/24 but couldnt win. I played really good that game, but our adc and support who were playing together, made a horrible call late game and got caught, and that ment the game. I got demoted to Gold 2, after playing two games where i played really well but lost anyways (Frustration!!). (Got demoted with the first game, the 4 v 5 game)

After that, i play 2 more games (i was gold 2 with 50 LP aprox.) which i won with graves jungle. (notice that i had played 4 jungle games in a row when i select adc as first choise and jungle as second), it was pretty good. I didnt play really well, but i did decent. It wasnt easy to win, but in the end we won that 2 games, it was nice.

Then i finally got my main role! I got to play ADC, finally. Also, my restriction to win loot due to bad behaviour was finally gone! i wasnt toxic anymore and things were frustraiting but in the right direccion. I play jhin, i have zyra as a support. The first 5 minutes are almost okay, in our lane, we were poking the enemy bot lane away, top and mid were having a bad time. Our lee sin top had died twice already and our mid leblanc once. Not terrible insta-losing game but not good either. Suddenly, after a fight, i go back and zyra stays. I ask her not to farm the wave, because i was on my way and she uses all of her spells and clears it. I am not trying to justify myself, but after all the frustraition i had from ranked games i told her that pushing like that and taking the minions only helped the enemy team.

I go back into lane, zyra recalls and goes back into lane and starts using all of her spells to clear the wave. I keep telling her to please stop taking the minions, while my top laner kept dying and telling me to "shut the fuck up". (Frustration of other games plus knowing that i was gonna lose 20 or 21 points because of those events triggered me).

I didnt insult anybody that game, the worst things that i said were:

"WTF ZYRA". (not isolated comment)

"stop troling me"

when lee told me to "stfu" i answered with "stop feeding and i'll stfu" (because zyra was taking the minions, he was dying a lot and told me to "stfu" when i told zyra to please stop taking my farm).

i asked the enemy team to report zyra, i dont know if that's being toxic.

"omfg what are you doing?" when she kept clearing waves with all her spells, after i asked her to please let me farm.

and that's the worst i said. (i can copy paste all the things i said that game).

So, to conclude:(TL;DR)

After all the frustration Ranked DinamicQueue brought me (which i cant describe with words how big it was), I got chat restricted once, i lerned and actually was glad i had it because it taught me things. Then i kept playing and the frustration kept growing but i could handle it. Then, because of one night that i was drunk and because my support trolled me and i asked to stop and then for an explanation, i got chat restricted again. 25 game chat restricted. Gold 2, little LP. After almost 3 years i am about to leave that account and maybe the game.

I'll leave the second chat restriction things that i said in a comment if somebody wants to know.

If you made it this far thanks for reading and whoever you are, i hope at least you understand.