I'M DEPRESSED & NEED SOME ADVICE/HELP..

Hi guys, so I've been playing this game for already 5 years and I wasted about 95+ days on this game and I begin understanding 1 thing. I feel like I lost my personality, my humour, my own way to think and the way I was before and it's killing me... I tried to figure out what is wrong with me & what is going on but I just can't understand how this could happen to me. Why I'm blaming this game? Because I wasted so much time on it & I know that it's my fault, but it feels so bad that I feel like I will never be myself again and be the creative and original guy I was before starting to play this game. I remember that I begun playing games after games and that one friend of mine was keep calling me and saying ''dude let's meet, let's meet'' but I was like ''leave me alone''.. and I kept playing this game. Now there is a girl that I like and we talk but I can't even talk to her more than this : Hey, how are you, I'm fine what are you doing? ... Before I could easily talk to girls / chat and dont have any problems, but now it's opposite way.. I don't know if what I described before ever happend to you or am I the only one.. (I don't think so). So if there is anyone who wants to say something or try to help me understand why this happened to me I will really appreciate it. Thank you for reading and have a good day.