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How does one cope?

Desole·11/8/2016, 1:27:12 AM·1 votes·412 views

So, out of curiosity, how does one cope with one's life going down the drain? Doubt anyone really cares. But figure to get some kind of input if possible.

Long story short, met a girl on forum, set up rank team was fine for months. She is very stubborn and refuses to let people too close or so I thought.

Ended up spending last Christmas with her, finding out I actually care and for lack of better words loved her.

But me being stupid and due to not taking Seroquel since October 2016 due to motorcycle accident, pain meds and antipsychotics are a no-no and ended up losing the second person I actually cared for more than myself. This guess you would call a break up happened a few months after new years. The last thing she said was "I don't care about you. Bye."

I guess I tried as best I could to cope without meds, even got back on Seroquel, hoping to stay with my ex, until she said what she said.

Only to find out from an ex- friend she replaced me with someone else. Naturally me being off meds is not a good thing but yeah.

How does one cope with all this really?

The ex-friend I believe is going through a divorce becuase of my situation - was dating her friend when she died of a heart condition several years back. So I guess she felt responsible for getting us together. At least until now.

Now I feel no need to do much and life been slowly getting worse again, plus a lot of things did happen in between . Not going on Seroquel again hate how everything is so slow and the reliance on it - plus quiting cold turkey is not fun at all

I know I am probably getting trolls and a lot of flak for this. I just do not have many friends left. Not that I really amount to anything on these forums

That said, no I will not provide any info on anyone but myself so do not ask about ex name, will not provide becuase that is rude. And no holier-than-thou attitude. Already tired of life as is and institutions.

And really misery loves company, and I guess I would like to hear from others what they do to not go off the deep end, again for me.

Note: sorry for delay or no response, very anxious writing - several hours trying to finish, will try to keep up when I can. And yes I am emotional about things sorry

9 Comments

Mordepool11/8/2016, 1:31:32 AM1 votes

Hey bud. Life is long and shitty with great Moments thrown in. Right now it's bad but it gets better. Family is good to be around

we all try to find happiness wherever that is for you so long as your not hurting anyone is a good place

I play DnD with friends when I'm home. I work in the oil sands spending long time away from my family. I make it worth it when I'm back with them. Cause it's hell everywhere except for where you make home

Best Kog NA11/8/2016, 1:32:15 AM1 votes

As someone that has dealt with that kind of crap before. Just talk to somebody. Anyone really. Find a positive group that will support you no matter what. Don't do what I've been doing and keep it to yourself or just try to ignore it and push past it. That causes more problems. By telling someone about it (the boards) even though this isn't the correct medium to do so, it's a start. And if you're really feeling like crap see a doctor. Or at least call one of countless free help lines that exists out there. You can get through this.

AthenasVendetta11/8/2016, 1:44:53 AM1 votes

First one must love themselves, find yourself, to truly know what it means to thrive and be happy. Find things you like and do it without the thought of others or for whom. Work out, run... hunt, fish... Do whatever makes you happy.

Desole11/8/2016, 3:39:23 AM1 votes

That is the thing though. I kind of lost most of my friends at this point, which usually happens after an episode.

I am not particularly close to my family. Everything I used to enjoy just makes me anxious. I used to enjoy league, WoW, anime, games in general, but now I really cannot as I get anxious, depressed, and simply wished my ex-friend did not fly over here get me help which I did not want. It probably does not help I am not very outdoors type of person and put too much into people I do care only for something like this happen.

I do try though, at work, at least I can somewhat focus, but being home again just feels wrong. I have games I want to play, beat again, cannot do it. Anime to watch, ends up being depress, movies to watch, but they stay wrapped because of my ex-girlfriend.

I guess one good thing is whoever my ex-friend go to watch over my place overfed my cat so she is kind of fat now and keep my league up, sort of.

I understands trying to find happiness or talk to people, but when I simply do not care and it starting to affect work where my manager is noticing, well that is a problem.

I do not have much anywhere to go at this point, and yes I know boards are not super amazing. but I guess I am trying ot keep some semblance of normalcy or at least sanity at this point. just very hard to find any enjoyment really.

I know it pathetic and that I am pretty pathetic myself. and meds really do not help, at most they keep those thoughts away allowing me to ignore it until a) I cannot keep taking them barbecue I hate how they make me feels, or b) I injure myself again and cannot take them, and all this starts over.

super pathetic isn't?

Doozku11/8/2016, 3:40:46 AM1 votes

Just keep playing league of legends... That is all that matters.....

Desole11/8/2016, 3:47:51 AM1 votes

I guess I cannot go to league because I really, want to talk to her again even after she said she does not want to speak to me, not to mention the whole being replaced deal.

probably does not help my ex-friend deleted her and any reference from my computer and left notes as to not talk to her anymore all things considered...

probably would be unhealthy to talk to her again

Desole11/8/2016, 6:54:15 AM1 votes

well thank you for the replies so far, guess will keep focusing on work as much as possible, just any downtime and I suppose reality hits again...