I had a horrible October month...(Just move on if you want to..I just want to let it all out...)

This is merely me just letting everything out since I can't let it out in public for reasons...Move on to other boards or topics if you want. I had my 1st ever break up in October...She was my 1st real girlfriend and I actually was happy until she broke up then I found out that she lied about the reasons she broke up and was cheating...Back in high school there was this girl who lied to me then tricked me into calling a machine that said horrible things to me for her own amusement. Even before that I was always distant and left out of activities from the groups and even bullied with harassment so much that...I put a mask over everything I used to be. Soon I just laughed with them and they even let me sit at lunch with them making fun of me being the only Korean in the school...I just laughed with them like I never cared, but it hurt badly. No adults helped even though my parents kept saying talk to teachers, but in High School everyone expected me to handle it like an adult. A once nice and care free kid turned into a silent kid who didn't give a crap in the world at all. I don't know if my trust will ever come back after what this girl has done...I even told her everything I was through...My heart was shattered into pieces, but I had classes to go to and I just ignored the sadness even though it was a huge weight on my shoulders. I'm sorry for ranting on about this...I truly am because compared to a lot of you what I was through is nothing and I'm truly sorry for what a lot of you go through every single day. It's just that it hurts so badly that the person I loved broke my heart so badly and my entire trust with it with the added weight of getting good grades in the college classes. Again, I'm sorry for ranting on about something that a lot of you had something worse happen to you and I hope that you get through it successfully and live on.