I feel happiest losing a game once I've stopped trying

Today my normal games were all awful, I only won a 4v5 and lost about 6 other games. I only actually did poorly in two of those losses. The funny thing is, I was actually having fun in the loss the I stopped trying to win in. I felt miserable in my first loss, as Alistair support going 5/6/17 having near 100% kill participation, excellent ward coverage and devoting my whole existence to peeling for my carry. I was miserable because no matter how well I did, I couldn't win that game. My Jinx kept wasting her flash diving into the enemy team, trying to last hit a low support then flamed me when I couldn't save her (But I always died trying), and no one else on the team was dealing any significant damage. My second loss, a Nasus top, I had 500 stacks at 20 minutes, was up a kill, and had phenomenal CS to boot. Unfortunately my bot lane got super far behind their Vayne, and by the time I got to her at around 23 minutes she could already 3 shot me through my frozen heart, randuins, spirit and ult. Their Jayce could 2 shot me with his poke combo, but I dodged it enough for it not to really matter. Losing that game mad me want to cry, because I was really excited that I was dominating my lane as Nasus, then had to deal with constantly dying whenever I tried to frontline for my team, them running away as I held the enemies' agro, then them getting aced while running. My third loss was Aatrox top. I had about a 80 CS lead on the enemy Shen, a lot of that was the enemy jungle's camps (I did Cinderhulk Aatrox just to try it), despite me being camped pretty much the whole game. Of course, my mid lane TF and jungle Vi kept getting killed by their Diana, who made her way towards me after she had about 10 kills. I held 3 of them in my lane for the next 12 minutes (Dying once but tping back top to stop their push with my e maxed waveclear) and my team still managed to get wrecked 4v2 against their bot lane. I felt like I was doing really well, but it didn't matter because then they grouped as 5 and I couldn't do anything anymore. The next loss was the one that I enjoyed, my Aatrox jungle. I soloed Dragon at level 2, then got flanked doing the scuttle crab, dying. I tried making plays top and bot, but they were already really far behind too. I stopped trying to win when 20 minutes came around and played a fun little mini game, I kept stealing their Rengar's camps and then getting executed when they found me. It was actually really fun, and since we had 3 inhibs down I sold my build and bought mobis, alacrity, and a few seals to escape their jungle better. I had more fun doing that then playing well today, and though yes, it was troll, I can honestly say that, considering it was a normal game and we were losing anyways, I do not regret doing it.

TL:DR, LoL is a game, might as well have fun with it once you know you're definitely going to lose. Some games are unwinnable no matter how hard you try, so once it's out of your hands just play with it!