I don't enjoy this game anymore... :-(

I used to love it. I don't know what happened. I don't know if it's dynamic queue making me feel like riot doesn't give two shits about me (I'm a solo player). I don't know if it's the awful game balance or the fact that I dislike most of the overloaded new champs. I don't know if it's the community, and how the only thing I see anymore are flamers, ragers or being being obnoxiously BM jerks and TRYING to provoke. Maybe it's that all the youtubers and streamers I liked who played league are leaving it. Maybe it's that half my friends list left. Maybe I'm just getting too old for it... or maybe it was just never a good game to begin with and now that's finally becoming obvious.

I don't know what it is, but this game only ever seems to make up angry or depressed anymore. It feels like losing a friend. I don't go to school anymore, and league always used to be what I did to chill at night after I got home from my crappy job... and all it does any more is depress me. I'm kinda prone to depression as it is, so it's doubly bad. It's not Riot's fault... even if they're an easy thing to blame. The game isn't made for me. It's made for millions of players worldwide. It just makes me so sad to see a part of my life I enjoyed for years bring nothing but bad feelings now. I don't know what to do about it. The game isn't for players like me anymore, and it feels like I've lost a friend.

Not even sure why I'm posting this either, other than to get it off my chest. I'm sure I'll get downvoted to oblivion, ignored entirely or just flat-out insulted and mocked by people. At least I said what I wanted to say, I guess.... Now if only I could find it in me to quit playing and stop feeling like garbage.