You know what...

I quit Support. The boards hate them having an opinion. I lose constantly to forces outside my control. I never get respect. Almost every game I lose I win lane hard then lose the game. I'm about to be demoted to gold 1 from diamond 5. I don't know what the fuck is up with league of legends this season but every game I play lately ends in defeat. I have no answer. I have no game plan or solution. I cannot stop my ADC from being out of position. I cannot stop my mid laner without TP from being away from the team on a side lane. I cannot force my jungler to be at the dragon or baron when they spawn. I cannot teach my TOP laner that wards keep him alive when split pushing. I cannot teach my teammates how to farm passively when behind.

I love the support role don't get me wrong, I have been a support main for 3 years now, but enough is enough. I cannot stand losing one more game because of one of my carries are being stupid. When I am support I can peel, engage, disengage, chase, poke, ward and clear waves but I cannot deal the damage needed on my team. I have tried playing carry supports like Zyra and I have had mixed success because unless you snowball a ridiculous amount you will not get the gold and exp needed until late game. Unfortunately most games end before then. I do my best, roaming, vision control of objectives, and wave management when my teammate have no idea what that is.

I can't handle it anymore. I need to be the carry, I need to be able to say, "Well shit...that was my fault". When you are support you don't always get that option. It was fine when my games seemed to be won due to my good playing skills. For some reason I don't feel that anymore. I don't feel like my skills are making a difference. I don't really understand what changed but support feels really terrible to me this season. I want to feel impactful and even when I am landing clutch CC I don't feel like I had any impact. Perhaps this is the type of supports I play, I like AP supports like Nami, Lulu, and Soraka. I play quite a few to be honest and can play all of the AP supports at a very high skill level.

I will admit, I was playing Soraka a lot as she was always a favorite of mine. I really enjoy the healer fantasy and she filled it to the letter. She was over tuned and OP as hell. She is quite balanced now but I miss being able to carry my team. To hit that fantasy of out healing my opponents because I position well, manage my health well, dodge skill shots well, and place CC well. To that I thank Soraka for letting me reach my highest rank. Unfortunately recent changes to Grievous wounds has made it FAR too easy to completely nullify her impact outside of E. DO NOT TAKE THIS AS A RAKA LOVE THREAD this is merely an example of when I felt like I could carry with my skills from support. I think Raka is in a fine place now. I would like to carry with her but that is never going to be support's role. Mark my words, Zyra will be next because she can carry from support role. She was the last champion I felt I could carry with very effectively. Zyra can sometimes but it requires some snowballing first.

I wish someday to return to support. I am sure I will continue to play a game of support here and there. As I mentioned I love the healer role and want to do that more but as it stands I want to be able to say "I misplayed that." instead of having to admit that it was my ADC out of position that cost us the game. I can't control that. I never will be able to. I know there are supports out there that reach higher then diamond 5 and I suspect most of them do so with a duo but if not I have no idea what they do different then me. I cannot think of anything that I can change. Sure there are times I could've done X instead of Y but that doesn't change the fact the midlaner was in base and ADC bot lane when my jungler and top laner decided to engage the enemy team 3v5 under mid turret.

If I am to be demoted to gold division after so long being in plat+ then I will do so because I failed not because my allies failed.