The content grind coupled with trying to improve at the game is tough...

This account is now level 30, which means I can get back into the real deal of League. Which, of course, means grinding tons of IP for runes.

The tier 2 runes being basically free is nice, but then I check guides for rune setups and they feature things like hybrid pen reds or scaling runes in general, which don't have budget replacements. That just leaves me sitting here wondering "...now what?" .

I still don't even have all the champions I'd like to use, let alone all these runes and eventually rune pages...

I miss my old account and it actually having nearly all the relevant tier 3 runes after a couple of rune sales, but that's all in the past now. (Speaking of which, are there ever going to be rune sales again? I don't even remember when the last one was.)

It doesn't help that I'm really not that good a player, and I tend to get outmatched easily. This results in me doing badly most of the time and feeling like I'm the bad guy here for making things miserable for my team.

I want better runes, so I need to play for IP. You get more IP for winning, for which I need to improve my skills. In the process of improving, I trip up and have bad games, which makes my teams angry/tilted and makes me feel bad that I'm ruining their experience.

I just get so easily tilted when I'm doing badly because I'm concerned that I'm ruining the game for my teammates. This wouldn't be a problem if I had friends to play with, I don't think, but most of my friends are plat or higher, which wouldn't work out at all considering I play at maybe a silver level at my absolute best...

It's like a four-way intersection where I want to go in every direction at once.