I wish I could just go back in time.

I used to enjoy things, believe it or not. I wouldn't go on the forums and complain about things every day, because I didn't really have a need to. Older tools always work far better than newer ones, and the same idea applies to gaming -- when things like DLC, cash shops, planned sequels before the game is even done, and all that exist... gaming is just shit now. Every game I used to enjoy was destroyed, and nothing new ever comes out that's worth even looking at. And we can thank morons that throw money at whatever's shiny for that one. Riot? They would have literally been laughed out of the industry, since we expected quality. But, gamers like that are just not around anymore, for whatever reason.

Then combine that with the fact that, since I'm not in school anymore, I literally go days at a time without even talking. I never had friends, but at least I would be around people while at school. My family hates me, and my dad actually beats me half the time I'm around him, so I'm just alone locked up in my room while I'm at home. At work, my store is so slow that no one ever really comes in anyway, so I'm actually alone all day there too. Even if I never had friends, it was still nice just to be around people, and to know that I'm not just a ghost or something.

And, the older I get, the worse and worse my anxiety and depression get. It's to the point that I have mini panic attacks several times a day, don't enjoy anything, never really laugh or smile or have any kind of emotions, or anything.

Was nicer back then. But now every game I used to enjoy is dead, I'm always alone, my family hates me, gaming as a whole died years ago, I lost all faith in humanity... It's no wonder I don't enjoy anything anymore.

I don't know why I bother, with anything. Gaming isn't coming back, I'm not going to be anything but alone, and society is just going to get worse and worse.

... I don't look forward to the future anymore. I haven't for years.