Why am I still playing this game

warning: This is a random rant and probably my life story, its about a pretty disgusting pathetic loser. Sorry for the bad grammar i've been sleeping in lrn2speeel class Hi guys its me Sihun! someone you don't know, writing from the middle of nowhere. So I'm a veteran in this game playing it for six years ever since a friend introduced me to the game I have not been able to stop yo Ryan, I'm talking to you buddy. When i first started playing the game I was like okay whats the most op thing in the game because I want to beat everyone and make them rage, and my friend said Kassadin and I'm like okay i have no clue what that is but ill try him as soon as I install the game 5 months later. So i started to play the game just for fun to prove to my friends of course still didn't pick up kassadin. But who needs the void-walker ehh okay moving on.... So this was back in the eighth grade... When i hit the ninth grade finally level 30 and finally i can kick sum major butt because now im a pro and i can play ranked strait out of the bot games because I'm faker in that Elo. In truth I was just a lonely 14 year old wanting to prove himself to his silver friends. So i spent endless hour's probably stunting my growth in the position I've been sitting (I'm sorry mom i'm not 6 foot im only a inch short from there does it really matter), trying to get to silver league. Silver league the heaven where you finally get a border. But you know what bronze mein that hell everyone complains about i couldn't get out. I spent more time online typing how to get out of bronze then typing how to get a life. well finally it paid off after ruining my grades and deleting whatever chance i had with a girl I did it guys! silver league! What did I feel when i hit silver league though? You think that after a guy spends a year and a half in bronze and finally gets out playing in the attic because if his asain parents catch him hes dead? nothing i felt absolutely no joy. So why did I keep playing? After I hit silver league I had a new goal to be better than my friends at the game which wasn't really hard, i think i just wanted the appreciation of not being called a scrub and actually hanging out with the cool-kids. But honestly I met half these guys online do they truly care for me is league the only thing that links us together other than anime? Well my grades were sunk welp only one way to turn this around, Go kassadin and go lcs! Nope rito nerfs kass, but after another year of hard work I hit gold league, oh how I was crying in joy for all of what two seconds, well after that my friends quit the game so what all that hard work of 3 years put to waste trying to be better than nothing? Honestly it was a loss for me id rather keep those friends then have some measly gold pixels around my name. well then for two years I wandered in gold looking for new friends uninstalling the reinstalling but then never having the balls to keep it uninstalled all while ruining my life even more. One day I was on tilt so much that i got kicked into silver 1 and I said okay ive had it with you gold piece of trash scrublhsgaslhdha . And that's my life story of how i made it to platinum But was it worth it, all that time and all that mindless grinding, not having a bright future, league you gave me some fond memories with friends that i can never forget. I wish i could move on but I'm still here looking for those moments. I know nobody is going to look at this thread its a poor rant but please what the hell am I doing. I wish i was so at least id be some bad boi robot who can fire lazors ____ oh comon why isnt there a sexy as hell Asian champion that looks like anime character gotta go with no im not gay cheers Sihun( the guy everyone still doesn't know) p.s I am kassadin main, but i still havent played a game with him